One week and 3 weeks

What I was up to for the past one week.

Reverse a bit, 2 weeks ago, i left my car at the car wash centre at my apartment. I forgot to collect it back, hence it stayed overnight there. The same night, the ceiling of my toilet collapsed. Apparently, my nice neighbour up there poke the pipe until it burst or something, and it drop on my ceiling and therefore it collapsed.

Past one week, my laptop died on me. So i brought it to HP Centre for it to be fixed. Initial check confirms that it's LCD problem. But i think it's the graphic card problem, cause the same symptom happened before it crashed on me last year. Then i asked for quaotation.

1. Service charge, include open up and check only. RM95
2. LCD only - RM1100
3. Since there is internal webcam attached, if it's broken. Including the LCD is RM1500
4. Graphic card (attached together with motherboard, so have to change the whole thing)
RM1396

I took back my laptop, without even allowing them to open up and see. So darn expensive.
It's only 17 months old.

And Yesterday, I sent a friend home to her place in Sunway. As i reversed, I saw that bits of wall sticking out and I even told myself to be careful. Either I was tired or I need new pair of glasses, the right side of my car butt bang to the wall with a loud BANG. >.<

Well... it doesn't look like things don't run smoothly on my part, cause, I was laughing while I told my friend

"You know.. my laptop died one me.. HAHAHAHAAH".
"I just langgar the wall with my car butt... HAHAHAHAHA"


3 weeks from now, I'll be sitting for the Peperiksaan Menguji Ketahanan Lasak Anda dan Memori Anda (forgive my malay, i.... errr.. left high school long time ago..).

And, I'm here blogging and just finished a tv session. Seriously, I haven't even finish reading up my syllabus. left 1 big subject and 4 small subject. Can jump well, quote HS.

Right, have a great weekend people! God Bless you!!

On My Table

Standing Still

It has been in my mind for quite sometime. And it keep coming back to me no matter how hard i suppress it or try to avoid it. And during a close friend's wedding last week, all that I've suppressed in finally appeared all together, just like the light stuff all floating up on the water after being suppressed underneath. I can't help it, but the tears just flood my eyes and I tried to hard to hold it back, so that i won't ruin my make up, and it's someone's wedding!

Since the beginning of the year till now, I've attended some 4 weddings of my close friends and a cousin. till now, it's 4. they are People around me age, my peers. And what makes it worst is, people start asking when is my turn. And when they found out I'm with nobody, that makes it even more worst. And when the history of me not involved in serious relationship before, makes people wonder, if I'm gay (no offence to gay people okay...)

While my friend walk down the aisle, other than being touched by their love story and the relationship, I just thought back on my life and my love life. Seriously, I don't see that I lack of anything in my life. Loving parents, loving brothers, wonderful and loving sister in law, a group of supporting friends and a busy life. I don't understand what is it that I'm lack of, but, since the beginning of the year, I felt the pressure from people, just because I'm alone. As i told one of the Gfs about this yesterday, I can feel my tears, flooded my eyes.

Am I too picky, or the guys appear in my life just doesn't seem right. Why is it so easy for others to fall in love and be in a relationship but I can't. This was what I've been thinking. Until the poind where, I thought I am being too picky.

And yesterday, I told one of the GFs, that the main condition so called to become my other half, is He must be a christian. The moment i say that, I feel like I'm like this hard core holy fanatic Christian. Seriously, i start questioning myself, does it matter?

Yes, it does. I can't believe half of something and ignore the other half right. What Celest said last night was really encouraging. Never under estimate your own value, your own belief.

Going for it for the sake of it, is really wrong. Getting one just because I suppose to, is also wrong. having one just because everyone else did, is also wrong.

I'm also just a girl....

03.06.09

(Pictures in courtesy of LukasFoo)

I just found out these pictures from Lukas's blog.

I really didn't know or notice, that Darrel was behind me and manage to take a few shots with the studying me. I was so concentrating I guess, or just the music blasting at my ears can't hear anything else but the music. Bleh..

Back to study!

God Bless!

26.05.09

So I'm back at home. After the really last minute plan. Luckily the air ticket is not so expensive buying at last minute.

The flight back was not so good. First half of the journey, there were girls talking few rows behind me and I can hear their conversation. Then the second half the the journey, there was a crying baby, cried on top of his lungs. I can't really hear them with my mp3, but the last 20 minutes before landing, I feel like shouting at the pilot to land as fast as he could.

I was overjoyed when I first touch down. Like, never been home before that kind. Too tired with life over there and I called home and asked if I can come back. Hehe, even for that few days, I'm satisfied. To recharge myself to continue and fight the battle.

So now i'm at cousin's place, as my own place, the modem broke down. Nobody uses the computer, thus the modem was on 24/7 and now, resets every 3 minutes. So, i can't really online. Need to get a new modem. Therefore, no photos for now.

Till then, see you guys this weekend. Don't miss me much :)

22.05.09

It was a crappy day.

Salute You

I never had a chance to tell you this, or I probably don't see a point of telling you this out of the sudden. But not that this is a good time. But....

Although life sucks on you, although everything doesn't seems alright with you, I know, you never stop searching for that something that deep inside only you can understand.

Although it seems like everything that happen, is brought upon by yourself, but hey, nothing happens from one party only.

But of all the things that happened, I always see you as a very brave person. A person that always seek for happiness thou nothing last forever, the person that always hope and always give, though it may not last, the person that always be strong and never give up, though sometimes it fails on you.

And to compare me and you, you have more colours in your life than I do, cause you are brave to make steps out of the ordinary, out of the way we're taught or told to be, out of our very own comfort zone. And when experience counts in life, you had more than I have.

So, I salute you. I've been thinking of this a lot lately, and, I just want to tell you, life sucks and sometimes it fails on us, but, we continue to hope and we continue to work towards perfection, cause life is full of hope. We may fall into pieces, we may just want to sit and let life pass us by, but I know, you will stand up and continue walking very soon, so, don't sit too long. Life is waiting!!!

Take care, Love you always.
Cynth :)

15.05.09

It's really late now, and i suppose to go to bed, but, i feel bad for not studying.

It's already 15th now, countdown, 7 weeks and 5 days to go before exam. And I was checking out FB, checking out blogs and now my own blog.

My stress is on and off, like, this minute i feel the stress, the next minute, I was doing something else. Or, I was telling friend "die lorrr..... cannot finish study..." then next minute I was talking about random stuff and continue on until I'm satisfied.

Not sure how, when I was in LLB, i told myself, if i can't make it, at least i still have other qualifications that I can depend on. But now, hmmm, I don't know how to motivate myself to run faster and faster. I've been studying consistently everyday, but, I have the feeling that i cannot finish the syllabus. But, whatever is it, I will not chicken out. I will sit for the exam no matter what.

Still, I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.

Friend says "2 months or One year and 2 months". That motivates her.

At least, I'm still hanging on and persevering. Hehe.

I just need to hang on!!!

A Prayer

It's been a drama for past one week. The happy and the unhappy one.

Felt this burden in the heart to say a prayer to you all.

May God protect you and your family and watch over our property.
May God's angel guard you in all your ways.
May God guide you, keep you and love you.
Amen!

Off to bed. Tomorrow will be a great great day!

Beauty and Pain

Recently, almost every month since the beginning of the year, I attended a function, mostly on weddings. Then birthday parties. And, just these 2 weeks, I spent a lot on dresses, heels and make-ups and accessories. All are necessities right? Buying them at one go really cost a bomb in my wallet. This is coz i don't normally use them and i hunt for them only when i need them. I don't mind the recyclying of the same dress on different occasion. But, hey, girls should dress up and be pretty. Grrrr. This is on, trying to be nice and presentable.

So I explored the world of eye liner and mascara. Using it is pretty easy I think... coz some one did it on me. But taking it off really painful. Have to keep rubbing and rubbing, to take off the mascara and eye liner. Left my eyes red and skin around my eyes become sore. Grrr... this is on, trying to be nice and presentable, still.

Ah weell, next thing i'm gonna get, brush set. Though i don't really know how to do make up. But i think, every girl should have this stuff. Hehehehe....

bobbi brown doesn't sit around the gadget corner...
*speechless*

03.05.09

I suppose to be in bed already, since i have to wake up at 7am. Grrrr....

Just to sum up.
1. I didn't progress well in my studies. Too many temptations, too many distractions. I don't know how to priorities.
2. One of the mornings, freaking early morning, was waken up by screamings. And i cudn't sleep after that cause it just freaked me out. Someone attempted to jump off the building, but thank God, someone held her tight. Hmm.. just being sarcastic, jumping off from 4th floor? I bet she's drunk or high. Well, someone jumped from 2nd floor in the college hostel before, just to prove to the girlfriend that he really loves her. Yeah, she felt really loved. In the end, she enjoyed pushing him around in wheelchair, broken leg bcos of the jump. Here, The apartments here are clean. no bad record. Gotta continue to pray.
3. I went shopping, like for few days, that's why my studies not progressing well this week :p
4. I just did my french manicure and it's ugly. Daph would be laughing at me like mad when she sees it tomm. bleh

Orite. Another 5 hours tomm. Good luck with sitting for 3 hours without a break. muahahaha.

Till then, take care yea!

Crazy Ppl

So we went to the curve for the warehouse sale. I've never seen crazy sale like this before, never
seen such a long queue before. Seriously, it was worst than the post christmas sale in Aus.

this is where i first queue up. Super long. Then i went in front. cannot tahan. queue not moving at all. so we left.

Crazee. Inside like pasar. literally. pasar.

*Speechless*

Was thinking and going into emo state while driving just now when the radio...

我很想爱他...

I sang along....

Then...

一个人走

*speechless*

Then...

我等的人他在多远的未来

I was like... are you kidding me????

Since when the radio can read my thinking...???!!!

Being Enthusiastic

Just the other day, the 3 of us were talking about our childhood and all the things that we do besides attending schools and tuition. How coincidentally, the 3 of us plays the piano since young, and all the sudden, looking back at what I've went through to get where I am now, really, amazes me.

Well, we were all forced to learn the piano (sorry mom!). I remember me and bro used to hate saturdays cause we have piano classes on that day. And how we prayed and hoped that it rained every saturday so that we don't get to go classes (my piano teacher's place easily get flooded..hihihihi).

The preparation for the exams were tedious. I'm so totally can connect with what they were saying about the process of practising the scales, major and minor code. And I was like, hey, I'm really not alone. Everyone felt the same. Not only me. From the practicing and to the preparation to exam and on the exam day itself and during the examination, while facing the examiner. We all had felt the same. And probably this is the first time i was so enthusiastic and passionate in talking about what I know or my interest (the 2 girls were more excited in telling their experience, and their face glow with neon lights or fluorescent lights or something :P).

And we all hold the same pride of skipping a few classes at school just to go for practical examination and everyone will just stare at you, when we walk into the school late and still be proud of it, as if we have some kind of immunity or privilege.

Well, it's been a long time I'm not passionate about something. I miss the satisfaction of playing long pages of scripts, and the satisfaction of passing one grade and move to next, the satisfaction of learning a few pages long of songs or even the sonata. Or even the satisfaction of being able to swim 10 laps of olympic size swimming pool (I used to...). Or drawing something on a full size drawing block (I used to be good in oil pastel... used to). I miss being passionate about something..

Yea, I bought a violin and i thought i can share the same passion that i can in piano, but, urggh, i just hate the process. of learning from scratch. I wish i can play straight some really nice and long pieces, like canon or something.

I am still searching for it. ANd now, my passion is on books. -____- particularly on clp books.

12 Weeks

It's the 1st week of Intensive Revision class. Crazy. Just sitting there for couple of hours listening to fast lecture really tiring. Today the lecturer wrote stuff on the board, so, everyone moved forward to the first few rows of the class.
First time sat so front in class. SL said, we're bright student now. Cause we sit in front. -___-
While lecture, Adam keep disturbing both of me and Cilia. Cilia pointed out that our shoes are red.
May be it looks like i'm playing in the class, but i did listen to lecture while snapping one or two shots. Not trying to get into stress mode, which is not helping at all, I'll try to move forward using my own motivation and will. Hmm.. Of course, not by my own strength, but His.

Well, it's weekend again, and it's been a while since I don't look forward to weekends. But anyways, Have a blessed weekend!!

Till then, be good there!

Last Week

I went to Bird Park with Ty and Bro and Nephew. Nothing much that amazes me. Except for the flamingos that were sleeping on one leg and the other hanging like L shape, that I feel like going over and them a kick. muahahaha.. Photos still with Ty.

Then we went to PC Fair. Didn't see much, we just walked pass all the halls to take brochures. Oh, had coffee before PC Fair. I fasted that day, so had coffee only in the noon. First time I saw the this kind of concept of sugar. I saw this once in the HK movie only. Bleh. This coffee cost RM9, but how many times u get to drink coffee with the big view of KLCC next to u. BIG view of KLCC okay.. not the KLCC from far.

So then after the PC Fair, i went to class. After class, i went to Cell. then supper. Arrived home at 1.30am and still, went to shower. slept with my hair wet, and when i woke up, my hair still wet!! slept 5 hours only. Saturday class again. Saturday night went church for Easter production. Slept 5 hours again. Then Easter Sunday. Met up with a friend to church, and I didn't arrive on time. Bleh. It's Easter, so, I took a lil more time to choose my attire. Hehe. soli soli, i was late!


During class, I can't even concentrate. SL was sitting next to me, she looked super awake to me. I didn't dare to fall asleep. then SC was on my right side, also, copying answer attentively. I paiseh want to fall asleep. So, tried hard to keep myself awake. After the class ended, i walked out like zombie. Then the 20+ of us went lunch together. sat from 3pm to 5 pm there. then from the table, we stood up, walked a few metre and continueed talking. then walked to the middle of the road to the divider, and still talking. -_____- Probably all just know each other, so much to talk. So many plans to make.

Yesterday at IKEA, bumped to cell members. Grrr.. disturb me study only.....

And this afternoon, study at IKEA again with Adam and Cilia. Was reading attentively with my Ipod, and cilia suddenly pasted this on my notes. -_______-


I shall go to sleep. stupid class from 1pm to 6pm.

Easter Celebration

Went to CHC in the evening for Easter Production. Kena tipu, cause thought it's team from Singapore. who knows, it's team from local church. I enjoyed more when the pastor talk and sang all the old songs.

This was when we sang "He will come and save you". A very "lum" song.... melt my heart. The pastor got all of us to hold our phone with the screenbacklights on. like concert. so fun.

Yea, i looked back and saw the view was nice. so i took a few snaps with my phone.
We sat at the 2nd row from front, at the side. So, can practically see everything in the hall.

like concert. we don't even do this in our church. although we have band and lights flying around with colours, but not phone light or lighter and wave hand like concert. >.<

K.. i better go to sleep. it's gonna be, another long day tomorrow.

Happy Easter People. Be Blessed!

Happy Easter

It's another busy weekend. Having classes alone makes weekend busy. What more, slipping in all the activities before or after classes. That makes me, gonna be superbly exhausted by tomorrow night.

I wanted to go to a church for Good Friday but in the end I didn't, as most churches don't have services on Friday, unlike the East Malaysia, it's a public holiday and not here. A friend went to a RC church and didn't know the service lasted for 4 hours. If it's me, by 2nd hour, probably i've already fall asleep. And the church from East that has a branch here, service at 8pm night. So, i've class till 9.30pm, I've cell at 8.30pm. So, I went straight to cell after class. But I did fast for Good Friday. Like woke up at 8.30 just to eat breakfast.

It wasn't a busy week as we're having break. The Intensive Revision starts today, meaning, I'll be superbly busy with studies. Errr, I can try to be busy with books. Haha. I'm not so passionate to sit for exam this year, but at the same time, I want to do it. Hmmm... it's been a long time that I'm not really passionate in something.

Errr.... i want a camera. I want to learn (read: play) how to take photograph. Whatever i learnt from Photography Club in High School, already lost in space. haha. But, by the time I no longer studying, probably i'll be busy working. Hmmm.

Stress-Less

Sigh. Exam in 11 weeks time and I'm still taking my time slowly. Is it because I know I have another option if I fail this. Option of doing something else or redo it again next year.

Darn.... I need to be in stress. May be I should mix with people in stress.

I'm not progressing well in my revision.... but... I'm not in stress.

I've bought supplies of nescafe 3-in-1, instant noodles and Chicken essence.

I didn't study the whole day today and still sleep 10 hours per day. sigh...

How to cure the pig-ness in me?

Some more went through my boxes and books and notes to look for my Year 2 notes to help a junior. Bleahhhh....

K... i'll try to study....

got this fr london. so yummy. where can i get this here?
must be freaking expensive.
the big pack of M&Ms i bought, cost 1.80 pound. In msia, cost RM20+

It's April

Yes, and it's 3 more months to EXAM. darn. i'm not even 10% covered yet. And this is only the first round of revision. Yucks. How how how? During LLB, i'm so confidence I can cover my syllabus. This time... i'm so much slack. so relax and slack. some more have activities plan ahead. grrr...

ty, daph ask when go clubbing. She say next week? muahahaha....

K... i just feel like updating. Haha.

I've got class today. Ciao!