It's always been this opening sentence... It has been a dramatic week....
It was a dramatic week. Though just attending lectures and church in the weekend, more than that happened. I only can say, human always appear tough but deep inside, weak. It's tired trying to appear tough sometimes, and should u let your guard down, you're just as weak as a baby. It's okay to be not okay, Milia said.
Went to church as usual, which as good today. Then went to The Curve, had lunch and then walk around the flee market. Tried to get a ear phone as my ear phone already spoiled. So, had it actually on the counter of the Sony Style waiting to pay, but the waiting makes me impatience. So, I left without buying it. *hmmpf*
This week i've watched 3 movies with Yeng. 1st one was okay. 2nd one we didn't finish watching as Yeng had problem with her contact lens. 3rd one.. haha.... i enjoyed the music, but i think, half of the time we were talking and kicking the seat in front/looking around/ticking yeng and etc etc. It's a nobody-talks-and-only-music-and-dancing movie. Companion makes a big difference.
Next week, or coming week is Chinese New Year. I'm not going back to hometown as my whole family is coming over. So, for those who is staying in KL for the celebration, if you're in KL town, can give me a call and drop by at the hotel, mom and dad will give you angpao, don't worry. haha.
have a great weekend ahead!
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
Paint the Year
(I know this happened some 2 weeks ago, but due to the lazyness in editing pictures, it took me quite sometime to sit still and edit the pictures.)
The college zone of the church had Mural Painting Project, "Paint the Year Together". And my cell was one of the first to paint it when the whole piece of paper is still blank. We had a 'kandang' of our own, since we're called Fellowsheep. So, everyone had their skills showed off there, in trying to paint our own sheep there with our name.
Me, as usual, have to have to have to put my mark there, showed off my painting skills too. I know it's blue, and it's small. I'm just trying to make it simple and nice. Using my fingers to stamp the body of the sheep and the head, i drew leg and the neck. Later then, I drew another one and had Yeng to write her name. Yeah, the 'SY' is too big. That's her art... don't laugh!
Someone spoilt the painting inside our 'kandang', and then later Jon tried to cover it up with turning it into an orange colour sheep. Well, it doesn't look like a sheep, more like an orange bloated sheep. And it's called, Jon the orange.
As for Charlene, nicely we asked and asked, at last, she joined us in painting her sheep there. After drawing out the body of the sheep....
Char, Oh no, there's no place for me to draw the leg....
Celeste, Never mind lah, you try to squeeze it down there and
draw the head there (while pointing here and there)
Me, or you can draw the leg all up there, as if it is lying down....
Ya ya ya, like lying down on green pastures....
So, she had the sheep's leg all up as if it's lying.. on green pastures.... Psalm 23.
The college zone of the church had Mural Painting Project, "Paint the Year Together". And my cell was one of the first to paint it when the whole piece of paper is still blank. We had a 'kandang' of our own, since we're called Fellowsheep. So, everyone had their skills showed off there, in trying to paint our own sheep there with our name.
Me, as usual, have to have to have to put my mark there, showed off my painting skills too. I know it's blue, and it's small. I'm just trying to make it simple and nice. Using my fingers to stamp the body of the sheep and the head, i drew leg and the neck. Later then, I drew another one and had Yeng to write her name. Yeah, the 'SY' is too big. That's her art... don't laugh!Someone spoilt the painting inside our 'kandang', and then later Jon tried to cover it up with turning it into an orange colour sheep. Well, it doesn't look like a sheep, more like an orange bloated sheep. And it's called, Jon the orange.
As for Charlene, nicely we asked and asked, at last, she joined us in painting her sheep there. After drawing out the body of the sheep....
Char, Oh no, there's no place for me to draw the leg....Celeste, Never mind lah, you try to squeeze it down there and
draw the head there (while pointing here and there)
Me, or you can draw the leg all up there, as if it is lying down....
Ya ya ya, like lying down on green pastures....
So, she had the sheep's leg all up as if it's lying.. on green pastures.... Psalm 23.
So, this... our master piece.
I had fun!
I had fun!
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
Someone
Lately I had not been sleeping very well. Not that I'm too tired or stress over studies, but just couldn't sleep well. It's already a month after the new year, but yet i couldn't see any changes/progress in life but still carrying the same burden, the same problem. No one seems to understand, not even me know it myself thoroughly. I wonder why.
I can't say every decision that i made is correct, nor I can say, every steps that I made, I made with no regrets. With the same situation given at the 2nd chance, I'm not sure whether i can do better, or I'll lead to the same way. The thing is, I've been carrying it alone, all by myself.
It's no easy being someone much more mature, someone under the spotlight. Someone that people look up to, someone that people see/analysis every action and word of mine. I would rather be the person behind the stage, walking not under the limelight and yet still equivalently important. Is this possible?
If you ask me to differentiate between black and white, I really don't know what's the criteria or requirement making it black or white. Things can never be purely black or purely white, and human can never distinguish strictly the colour of it, as individual human as different interpretation.
As for me, I'm not sure why, but I just know, I am afraid of disappointment and getting hurt. The thing about taking the heart out and treating people sincerely, sometimes everyone appreciates them, sometimes it's not appreciated. And the thing about doing good deed for others, sometimes people doesn't even know you're being nice to that person, or even protected that person once as an angel. Famous quote of all season, to give and take and when the right hand do good deed, don't let the left hand know about it.
My firewall is getting higher and higher, my guard is increasing from time to time. To prevent people from getting in, and to prevent people from hurting me. I am constructing, a world of my own again.
Can someone crush my wall down though u know you'll get hurt in process?
I can't say every decision that i made is correct, nor I can say, every steps that I made, I made with no regrets. With the same situation given at the 2nd chance, I'm not sure whether i can do better, or I'll lead to the same way. The thing is, I've been carrying it alone, all by myself.
It's no easy being someone much more mature, someone under the spotlight. Someone that people look up to, someone that people see/analysis every action and word of mine. I would rather be the person behind the stage, walking not under the limelight and yet still equivalently important. Is this possible?
If you ask me to differentiate between black and white, I really don't know what's the criteria or requirement making it black or white. Things can never be purely black or purely white, and human can never distinguish strictly the colour of it, as individual human as different interpretation.
As for me, I'm not sure why, but I just know, I am afraid of disappointment and getting hurt. The thing about taking the heart out and treating people sincerely, sometimes everyone appreciates them, sometimes it's not appreciated. And the thing about doing good deed for others, sometimes people doesn't even know you're being nice to that person, or even protected that person once as an angel. Famous quote of all season, to give and take and when the right hand do good deed, don't let the left hand know about it.
My firewall is getting higher and higher, my guard is increasing from time to time. To prevent people from getting in, and to prevent people from hurting me. I am constructing, a world of my own again.
Can someone crush my wall down though u know you'll get hurt in process?
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Untitled X
I said a little prayer the other day. In frustration, I pray. People once say, the distance between God and us is between our kneel and the floor. Well, i was driving at the time. Tired with everything that happened, tired with the battle of person. And, tired of myself being tired. I wonder, where is that love that I have so much, that I pour on others. Where is that forgiveness and to forget that I always have. Used to be an optimistic me, now, always turn to the negative side when giving comments. yes, i hate myself being like this. I don't want to be the person who doesn't walk my talk. I hate hypocrytes, and therefore, i don't want myself becoming one. But, i felt so restless.
While bible says, lean not against your understanding but His, i tend to take control on my own. taking decisions and interpret things base on my own way. Actually, not sure why people tend to take control so much, on their own. After all, whatever that you've done, whether it matters or not, whether it's important or not, it doesn't matter anymore. taking revenge for example, after the effort and planning in taking revenge just like how we used to see in movies, after all the revenge, it seems meaningless. Well, I'm not planning a revenge. just an example. Like one of our previous chief minister once said, Heaven have eyes. So, i shall enjoy my everyday life without have to worry. hmm, saying it is easier than doing it.
on the other hand, brother just went back to hometown this morning, after a few days stay here. Was great having him around, having both of us together again. We're so close together, that people used to think that we're twins. But well, now, some people said that i look older. Okay, i shall take that as i look more mature than him.
So ah.... what's next? Going for badminton tomorrow. Progressively making it an weekly activity, which this week is the 2nd week we have badminton. Great. I shall be fit and strong, physically. haha.
It's weekend again, hopefully get to catch up with some studies, which it always fail. I've checked the movie showing in the cinema, none that i wanted to watch. So, i guess that can make me stay at home. Haha.
have a great day tomorrow, and a blessed weekend!
While bible says, lean not against your understanding but His, i tend to take control on my own. taking decisions and interpret things base on my own way. Actually, not sure why people tend to take control so much, on their own. After all, whatever that you've done, whether it matters or not, whether it's important or not, it doesn't matter anymore. taking revenge for example, after the effort and planning in taking revenge just like how we used to see in movies, after all the revenge, it seems meaningless. Well, I'm not planning a revenge. just an example. Like one of our previous chief minister once said, Heaven have eyes. So, i shall enjoy my everyday life without have to worry. hmm, saying it is easier than doing it.
on the other hand, brother just went back to hometown this morning, after a few days stay here. Was great having him around, having both of us together again. We're so close together, that people used to think that we're twins. But well, now, some people said that i look older. Okay, i shall take that as i look more mature than him.
So ah.... what's next? Going for badminton tomorrow. Progressively making it an weekly activity, which this week is the 2nd week we have badminton. Great. I shall be fit and strong, physically. haha.
It's weekend again, hopefully get to catch up with some studies, which it always fail. I've checked the movie showing in the cinema, none that i wanted to watch. So, i guess that can make me stay at home. Haha.
have a great day tomorrow, and a blessed weekend!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Update IX
The worst feeling...
you're standing in front of that person,
so close that you feel the heat of the body
but yet... can't tell him,
how much you miss him,
how much u care
and how much you love him.
You only manage to smile,
as thou, you're at the peak of losing him.
you're standing in front of that person,
so close that you feel the heat of the body
but yet... can't tell him,
how much you miss him,
how much u care
and how much you love him.
You only manage to smile,
as thou, you're at the peak of losing him.
When is this... going to end.
Sunday, January 21, 2007
One week
Today is the 3rd Sunday I'm back in KL. What i've been doing? What I'm up? I know i blog less now and it seems that i'm busy. Yupp, been busy. That's a world-wide used excuse, been busy.
Last Sunday, I went for steamboat with Tracy, Darren and Siew Yeng. The food was great, and the companion was great as well. I always say, no matter how nice is the food, if the companion is not good, it will overall make the night dull. That's why people hate to go dinners, especially when it's your auntie's dunno whose son/daugher got married and you attend the dinner on behalf of your parents, later on after the dinner sure will go for supper, as you didn't have a good meal, though the food is good.
WE had quite a lot of food. Big prawns and shells, which look like the logo of the Shell petrol station. So, if you guys want to go for steamboat, i shall recommend this one. Restaurant 20, situated at Sunway, next to Dominos. I went there twice already, and will go again next time.
Later, on Thursday, 4 of us went for badminton in the morning before class. It was fun, sweating and all. And also fun, looking at people running around chasing after the shuttle cock. I'm not good in it too, did some running as well. It was fun, but till the next day, except for darren who plays a lot, the others complain about muscle pain and butt or thigh pain. Haha. So, next week... swimming?
Yesterday Yeng and me attended the first Youth Service at Church.
It's combined service consist of Secondary Zone, College Zone and Young Adults. It's basically, without the older people. Haha. It was fun. And I didn't know, Juwita Suwito was there. it was the 2nd time i met her. Don't think she remembers me, but i told her we met at one of the Christmas function back in KK. Her album is great, so, go look for it at Canaanland.
Today i slept the whole day. Afternoon had late lunch at MacD. then Yeng and I decided to watch movie. COnfession of Pain. Though late for about 20 minutes, but still manage to be there before the show started (cut of the advertisement).
So, what am I going to do next week? Don't know. I Shall see.
Last Sunday, I went for steamboat with Tracy, Darren and Siew Yeng. The food was great, and the companion was great as well. I always say, no matter how nice is the food, if the companion is not good, it will overall make the night dull. That's why people hate to go dinners, especially when it's your auntie's dunno whose son/daugher got married and you attend the dinner on behalf of your parents, later on after the dinner sure will go for supper, as you didn't have a good meal, though the food is good.WE had quite a lot of food. Big prawns and shells, which look like the logo of the Shell petrol station. So, if you guys want to go for steamboat, i shall recommend this one. Restaurant 20, situated at Sunway, next to Dominos. I went there twice already, and will go again next time.Later, on Thursday, 4 of us went for badminton in the morning before class. It was fun, sweating and all. And also fun, looking at people running around chasing after the shuttle cock. I'm not good in it too, did some running as well. It was fun, but till the next day, except for darren who plays a lot, the others complain about muscle pain and butt or thigh pain. Haha. So, next week... swimming?
Yesterday Yeng and me attended the first Youth Service at Church.It's combined service consist of Secondary Zone, College Zone and Young Adults. It's basically, without the older people. Haha. It was fun. And I didn't know, Juwita Suwito was there. it was the 2nd time i met her. Don't think she remembers me, but i told her we met at one of the Christmas function back in KK. Her album is great, so, go look for it at Canaanland.
Today i slept the whole day. Afternoon had late lunch at MacD. then Yeng and I decided to watch movie. COnfession of Pain. Though late for about 20 minutes, but still manage to be there before the show started (cut of the advertisement).
So, what am I going to do next week? Don't know. I Shall see.
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Yesterday and Today
Few nights back....
It was an ordinary night, back at home, surf the net and chat as usual, while trying to do my notes. With the speaker loudly showing off it's potential sound, I was filling up the application form for examinations. And there I go, thinking... and.. became emo....
It has been a great a year and a half, studying law. Great friends, great companion that i get to know, great life, great college life and all. And, soon it's coming to an end. With the bunch of friends leaving next semester to UK, the external programme students are left here to complete the 3 years course here. Yeah, people is leaving again, from my life. Sad.
I'm blessed enough, to have a Uni life for more than 4 years. As I know, after i graduated from the previous degree, I will still be in college phase. But now, next year, I'll soon enter the world of working. Just know that life is not going to be the same as now greatly put fear in me. Especially that with the group of friends (read: supporter) behind my back, not sure where's everyone heading after we graduate. But that's not the point, that's too far away to think of and worry about.
This is going to be the final semester with the twinning programme group of friends, and I'm praying that time don't fly so fast. How pathetic life is, how unreasonable human being, when we have it in our hand, we don't appreciate it. But when it's almost slipping away, then you realise how great is it having it in your hand. I've always been appreciative, I've always been counting my blessing, but, it's not enough. Not feeling contended, in a way, hoping to have more time together.
If only we become less calculative, less digesting, less of expectation and less of judging. We will live life to the fullest. All the best to all my dear friends, in the new year, in the new semester, in the final year being together (hopefully not, as there's still masters programme to do... hehhehe...).
Emo is over =)
1.26am
It was an ordinary night, back at home, surf the net and chat as usual, while trying to do my notes. With the speaker loudly showing off it's potential sound, I was filling up the application form for examinations. And there I go, thinking... and.. became emo....
It has been a great a year and a half, studying law. Great friends, great companion that i get to know, great life, great college life and all. And, soon it's coming to an end. With the bunch of friends leaving next semester to UK, the external programme students are left here to complete the 3 years course here. Yeah, people is leaving again, from my life. Sad.
I'm blessed enough, to have a Uni life for more than 4 years. As I know, after i graduated from the previous degree, I will still be in college phase. But now, next year, I'll soon enter the world of working. Just know that life is not going to be the same as now greatly put fear in me. Especially that with the group of friends (read: supporter) behind my back, not sure where's everyone heading after we graduate. But that's not the point, that's too far away to think of and worry about.
This is going to be the final semester with the twinning programme group of friends, and I'm praying that time don't fly so fast. How pathetic life is, how unreasonable human being, when we have it in our hand, we don't appreciate it. But when it's almost slipping away, then you realise how great is it having it in your hand. I've always been appreciative, I've always been counting my blessing, but, it's not enough. Not feeling contended, in a way, hoping to have more time together.
If only we become less calculative, less digesting, less of expectation and less of judging. We will live life to the fullest. All the best to all my dear friends, in the new year, in the new semester, in the final year being together (hopefully not, as there's still masters programme to do... hehhehe...).
Emo is over =)
1.26am
Saturday, January 13, 2007
After a week
I'm back in KL, after a great holiday back at home. With the weddings that i attended and Christmas dinners as well as lots of meals at the restaurants with family and friends, I've gained 2 KG, just in 3 weeks time. But still, I'm still beyond the average level of BMI, due to my height. I still can gain more... hehehe....
In a week, I'm up to...
1. catching up with the gang
2. the water tap at the kitchen broke on the day that i came back.
3. ate 'luk-luk' (steamie) at the pasar malam (night market).
4. bang by a motorcycle while car is not moving.
5. borrowed 5 books from library (haven't start reading any yet)
my life is dramatic, or colourful i can say.
So, with the battle of the book and as expected, battle of human, I'm still coping up. Trying to adjust with the life here, including the traffic here, the amount of people around me, the study stress that I'm getting and the people that i'm meeting, as compare to the life that i have back in hometown, it's just totally different. Thou I'm only away for 3 weeks, but still need time to adjust to the faster pace of life back in KL.
And, my dear Mr Lecturer bugged me to attend class seriously and start revision, so, here I am, being kiasu, borrowed books for photocopy and start hunting for reference books and statute book. Well, it's still time for catching up, hopefully, will start serious study next week. haha!
As for the new year, I haven't think of any new year resolution. Maybe....
1. be not a procrastinator,
2. be more punctual,
3. be more of domineering values and less of compliance,
4. score well in Year 2 of LLB
5. Deeper in Faith
6. Deeper bonding with family
Someone said, a good new year resolution is make no resolution at all. Something like that. Well, for past few years, I did my new year resolution and have a check by the middle of the year to see how am i progressing. It's just something that i want to achieve, hopefully, to set a target and improve myself. Maybe you can do it also.
Have a good weekend :)
In a week, I'm up to...
1. catching up with the gang
2. the water tap at the kitchen broke on the day that i came back.
3. ate 'luk-luk' (steamie) at the pasar malam (night market).
4. bang by a motorcycle while car is not moving.
5. borrowed 5 books from library (haven't start reading any yet)
my life is dramatic, or colourful i can say.
So, with the battle of the book and as expected, battle of human, I'm still coping up. Trying to adjust with the life here, including the traffic here, the amount of people around me, the study stress that I'm getting and the people that i'm meeting, as compare to the life that i have back in hometown, it's just totally different. Thou I'm only away for 3 weeks, but still need time to adjust to the faster pace of life back in KL.
And, my dear Mr Lecturer bugged me to attend class seriously and start revision, so, here I am, being kiasu, borrowed books for photocopy and start hunting for reference books and statute book. Well, it's still time for catching up, hopefully, will start serious study next week. haha!
As for the new year, I haven't think of any new year resolution. Maybe....
1. be not a procrastinator,
2. be more punctual,
3. be more of domineering values and less of compliance,
4. score well in Year 2 of LLB
5. Deeper in Faith
6. Deeper bonding with family
Someone said, a good new year resolution is make no resolution at all. Something like that. Well, for past few years, I did my new year resolution and have a check by the middle of the year to see how am i progressing. It's just something that i want to achieve, hopefully, to set a target and improve myself. Maybe you can do it also.
Have a good weekend :)
Thursday, January 04, 2007
Finding Purpose
The blog has turned into not-so personal blog but repeatedly reporting about activities that happened around me lately. Especially with the Christmas season which is just over, it gives me inspiration to blog about happenings and blocked the philosophy side of me. Yeah, the blog has became a more general blog. From a blog of wanting to tell others my experience, it became sort of a blog of want others want to listen/know.
I think, the way of writing changes as my personality changes, from an influencer to a persuader. With a strong Steadiness and Domineering to a Influence and Compliance person. total 100% change. (It's not a, not-another-personality test. Many companies use this test when they employ future employees. Should take a look)
Now, that i don't know the purpose of writing, I might as well, update it once in a while, or just tear the whole blog down.
So much of ME, will make u bored.
So much of YOU, will put me into trouble.
So much of others, well, i dunno so much about other other ppl.
(dun worry, not talking about anyone. it's just me and my personality test.)
I think, the way of writing changes as my personality changes, from an influencer to a persuader. With a strong Steadiness and Domineering to a Influence and Compliance person. total 100% change. (It's not a, not-another-personality test. Many companies use this test when they employ future employees. Should take a look)
Now, that i don't know the purpose of writing, I might as well, update it once in a while, or just tear the whole blog down.
So much of ME, will make u bored.
So much of YOU, will put me into trouble.
So much of others, well, i dunno so much about other other ppl.
(dun worry, not talking about anyone. it's just me and my personality test.)
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Hello 2007
The New Year
The new year hasn't sink in yet and still thinking of the date 2006. Just came back from retreat yesterday, with muscle cramps and bruises as souvenir, not forgetting memories of fighting to win.. my team won of course, as well as bonding and getting to know new friends. We had countdown in welcoming the new 2007, while having barbeuque at the park of the highest mountain in Southeast Asia. Of course, we're not on top of the mountain, just somewhere 6 hours of climb before the peak. There's loads of food to gril and barbeque, while cramping together to get body heat from each other as it's cold up there. Overall, it was fun.
So, it's 2nd of January. While lots of people back to work, or some still working throughout the public holiday, i slept through the whole day. And with the internet connection back to normal, thou not so normal as usual, business back to normal, congesting the internet line trying to get their business done and people like me, trying to get into the online chat, but not sure whether it's the congestion or the internet connection is not back to normal yet, i still can't get into my mailbox. Since i can't access to flickr, so, i can't upload at pictures of the retreat.
Christmas 2006
The celebration was awesome, left me exhausted and skipped dinner, dropped on the couch to sleep on Christmas day. Been busy. Since back for 2 weeks, I've received pressies for birthday and christmas. For those who still 'keeping' my pressie with them, do give it to me. I really really believe in 12 days of Christmas. haha! But please, no undergarments. I've received 2 already. Thanks!
Weddings again
Attended 3 wedding dinners. Had lots of aunties asking when's my turn. That's a normal question asked when your peers getting married. Well, it's not a sad thing but still, have an excuse to enjoy my singlehood. Met lots of relatives and cousins, it became a small reunion for my family. And the toast, LOTS of toasts, made me drunk and left me had diarhhea the next day. Well, being a good girl, that next day's wedding dinner, i just had tea! haha.
So, while flickr can't be accessed at the moment, just bear with the post without photos!
The new year hasn't sink in yet and still thinking of the date 2006. Just came back from retreat yesterday, with muscle cramps and bruises as souvenir, not forgetting memories of fighting to win.. my team won of course, as well as bonding and getting to know new friends. We had countdown in welcoming the new 2007, while having barbeuque at the park of the highest mountain in Southeast Asia. Of course, we're not on top of the mountain, just somewhere 6 hours of climb before the peak. There's loads of food to gril and barbeque, while cramping together to get body heat from each other as it's cold up there. Overall, it was fun.
So, it's 2nd of January. While lots of people back to work, or some still working throughout the public holiday, i slept through the whole day. And with the internet connection back to normal, thou not so normal as usual, business back to normal, congesting the internet line trying to get their business done and people like me, trying to get into the online chat, but not sure whether it's the congestion or the internet connection is not back to normal yet, i still can't get into my mailbox. Since i can't access to flickr, so, i can't upload at pictures of the retreat.
Christmas 2006
The celebration was awesome, left me exhausted and skipped dinner, dropped on the couch to sleep on Christmas day. Been busy. Since back for 2 weeks, I've received pressies for birthday and christmas. For those who still 'keeping' my pressie with them, do give it to me. I really really believe in 12 days of Christmas. haha! But please, no undergarments. I've received 2 already. Thanks!
Weddings again
Attended 3 wedding dinners. Had lots of aunties asking when's my turn. That's a normal question asked when your peers getting married. Well, it's not a sad thing but still, have an excuse to enjoy my singlehood. Met lots of relatives and cousins, it became a small reunion for my family. And the toast, LOTS of toasts, made me drunk and left me had diarhhea the next day. Well, being a good girl, that next day's wedding dinner, i just had tea! haha.
So, while flickr can't be accessed at the moment, just bear with the post without photos!
Saturday, December 30, 2006
Blessed New Year
Happy Blessed New Year!
May Peace and Joy be with you and family,
good health in you and family,
showers of blessings be upon you,
spreading love through you to people around you.
May the new year be another great year,
prosperous in friendship and relationships,
productive in work and studies,
greater bond with family,
more achievement in life.
And as for me,
I wish for achievement in studies,
More of treasures of friendship,
Good Health, less stress.
Another good year.
Most of all, glory His name in everything.
God Bless you Readers!
May Peace and Joy be with you and family,
good health in you and family,
showers of blessings be upon you,
spreading love through you to people around you.
May the new year be another great year,
prosperous in friendship and relationships,
productive in work and studies,
greater bond with family,
more achievement in life.
And as for me,
I wish for achievement in studies,
More of treasures of friendship,
Good Health, less stress.
Another good year.
Most of all, glory His name in everything.
God Bless you Readers!
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Goodbye 2006
(as agreed, it's a sort of an obligatory post)
It has been a great year full with blessings showered upon me and family. Well, to count the blessings, really gonna be a long list.
As usual, when it's the beginning of the year, we tend to reflect and ponder, what do we want to achieve this year, what's our target and goal for this year, what we want to do to improve ourselves better that last year. And I started this year, rather, with feelings of lost. After graduated and attended my graduation ceremony, most of my peers had started work, but as for me, thou i'm much clear about what I want to do for the next 5 years, but it seems like it's still not clear yet. Everyone else is holding their own certificate, looking for a job and here I am, looking at my own certificate, seems loss. But however lost I am, I still hang in and perserve. And, I passed my Year 1 LLB. Praise God.
And part of the highlight of the year, my ex-cell leader, Milia got married. Yea, needed sometime to get used to it. Okay, not a possessive person, but rather a steady person that doesn't like changes. I used to stay over at her place in the weekends. From a girl who is comfortable enough to have herself in her own world, doesn't have a sense of belonging even to the cell that I always hang out with to a pretty babbly girl that can talk a lot, and have a confidence in herself when meeting with new people. Well, thanks to this kajie of mine, I've learnt a lot from her. Well well, thou have family already.. but still, need to take care of her little ones... like me :)
Out of the daily routine that i had other than studying and holiday break, I had a chance to do attachment in law firm. Learnt a lot, seen a lot. Was placed under lawyers who do litigation, almost everyday I exchange news and things that i learn with Addy, who did her attachment in a conveyancing firm. And just working for 2 months, I knew quite a lot of lawyers, which don't think a lot of them still remember me. And ya, added a working experience into my resume. *smile*
After requesting (read: begging) for 2 years, at last, dad had me joined a tour. Well, not so far, China. Had a great time there, thou the schedule was so pack. At night when we arrived the hotel, I just brush my teeth and wash my face. I didn't even change and straight slip into the bed, still wearing the same shirt and pants that i wore out the whole day. blek. Not sharing bed, so, no one is disgusted. hahaha.
So much about my life, so much of I've shared with others, I couldn't help but to say a thank you list to everyone that i can recall. Not gonna mention names one by one to say thank you, as we don't have to wait till thanks giving day to say thank you, or valentine's day to show our love.
As long as it last in my mind, I will always remember how you sms me during the weekends, asking me how have i been doing and telling me I'm always in your mind, though i'm going to see you in the next couple of days. Deep inside, I felt so much loved, as how detailed you are, taking care of me when I'm down with fever. And thou we don't talk when we're just 2 metres away, but I'm always touched with your sms asking how am I today. thank you.
I will always remember how the way u tease me, with sarcastic jokes and lame replies. And how you call every night during exam and being the first one to call after i finish each paper, has been a great encouragement to me. And I felt so loved, with having you to stop everything that you're doing, just to listen to whatever that is bothering me. Thank you so much, for the friendship that we have, that once my heart was so cold thinking of all the problems that is bothering me, thinking of you makes my heart warm. thank you.
I still remember, the 'how are you' that u ask each time we have a chance to talk. Nonsense or craps, happy or sad, long or short, you are there to listen. It really matters a lot, that u care to know, and things seems to cool down, just hearing u say 'how are you'. And i still remember, how you look for me at night when my phone die off and you thought something is wrong with me. With the amount of missed call, normally people will go "where have u been? Do u know i've been calling u so many times??!". But you, "are you okay? call me whenever u feel like talking, no matter how late". Through thick and thin we survive, I believe, we will be stronger. thank you.
People has been saying, only the ones the is much more experience can advice the younger ones, but not for me. I always remember, how you point at my head, telling me not to think so much. It just encourages me, not to fall but to stand stronger, as you are there, for me, even though you don't talk much. And you being sweet all the time, making me felt so much loved. And i always remember, those sms-es that we exchanged after we said goodbye. Especially the ones that i had during my long journey back home, your sms-es warmth me, reduced the scary thoughts in my head. thank you.
I also remember, how we had been, from being just friends to how we can read our minds. You always put yourself in my shoe, thinking and replies to my grumbles and dissatisfaction with the maturity that sometimes i couldn't believe it. You are there for me, giving the unbelievable advice and encouragement, when you can't even help yourself, and here you are, holding me when i almost fall. And how much you're amaze about me, I am too, amaze by you. And, because of you, I walk a step further, climb a step higher. Thank you.
Thanks much too for the prayers, the supports and encouragement. And also the ever ready inbox waiting for me to flood in whenever I need someone to pour out. I felt so loved, just you being detailed to ask, what happen to me and who bullied me when u saw me in a bad shape, or when i just have a bad hair day.
To mom and dad, sebas and jerry.
To all of you.
Thank you!
It has been a great year full with blessings showered upon me and family. Well, to count the blessings, really gonna be a long list.
As usual, when it's the beginning of the year, we tend to reflect and ponder, what do we want to achieve this year, what's our target and goal for this year, what we want to do to improve ourselves better that last year. And I started this year, rather, with feelings of lost. After graduated and attended my graduation ceremony, most of my peers had started work, but as for me, thou i'm much clear about what I want to do for the next 5 years, but it seems like it's still not clear yet. Everyone else is holding their own certificate, looking for a job and here I am, looking at my own certificate, seems loss. But however lost I am, I still hang in and perserve. And, I passed my Year 1 LLB. Praise God.
And part of the highlight of the year, my ex-cell leader, Milia got married. Yea, needed sometime to get used to it. Okay, not a possessive person, but rather a steady person that doesn't like changes. I used to stay over at her place in the weekends. From a girl who is comfortable enough to have herself in her own world, doesn't have a sense of belonging even to the cell that I always hang out with to a pretty babbly girl that can talk a lot, and have a confidence in herself when meeting with new people. Well, thanks to this kajie of mine, I've learnt a lot from her. Well well, thou have family already.. but still, need to take care of her little ones... like me :)
Out of the daily routine that i had other than studying and holiday break, I had a chance to do attachment in law firm. Learnt a lot, seen a lot. Was placed under lawyers who do litigation, almost everyday I exchange news and things that i learn with Addy, who did her attachment in a conveyancing firm. And just working for 2 months, I knew quite a lot of lawyers, which don't think a lot of them still remember me. And ya, added a working experience into my resume. *smile*
After requesting (read: begging) for 2 years, at last, dad had me joined a tour. Well, not so far, China. Had a great time there, thou the schedule was so pack. At night when we arrived the hotel, I just brush my teeth and wash my face. I didn't even change and straight slip into the bed, still wearing the same shirt and pants that i wore out the whole day. blek. Not sharing bed, so, no one is disgusted. hahaha.
So much about my life, so much of I've shared with others, I couldn't help but to say a thank you list to everyone that i can recall. Not gonna mention names one by one to say thank you, as we don't have to wait till thanks giving day to say thank you, or valentine's day to show our love.
As long as it last in my mind, I will always remember how you sms me during the weekends, asking me how have i been doing and telling me I'm always in your mind, though i'm going to see you in the next couple of days. Deep inside, I felt so much loved, as how detailed you are, taking care of me when I'm down with fever. And thou we don't talk when we're just 2 metres away, but I'm always touched with your sms asking how am I today. thank you.
I will always remember how the way u tease me, with sarcastic jokes and lame replies. And how you call every night during exam and being the first one to call after i finish each paper, has been a great encouragement to me. And I felt so loved, with having you to stop everything that you're doing, just to listen to whatever that is bothering me. Thank you so much, for the friendship that we have, that once my heart was so cold thinking of all the problems that is bothering me, thinking of you makes my heart warm. thank you.
I still remember, the 'how are you' that u ask each time we have a chance to talk. Nonsense or craps, happy or sad, long or short, you are there to listen. It really matters a lot, that u care to know, and things seems to cool down, just hearing u say 'how are you'. And i still remember, how you look for me at night when my phone die off and you thought something is wrong with me. With the amount of missed call, normally people will go "where have u been? Do u know i've been calling u so many times??!". But you, "are you okay? call me whenever u feel like talking, no matter how late". Through thick and thin we survive, I believe, we will be stronger. thank you.
People has been saying, only the ones the is much more experience can advice the younger ones, but not for me. I always remember, how you point at my head, telling me not to think so much. It just encourages me, not to fall but to stand stronger, as you are there, for me, even though you don't talk much. And you being sweet all the time, making me felt so much loved. And i always remember, those sms-es that we exchanged after we said goodbye. Especially the ones that i had during my long journey back home, your sms-es warmth me, reduced the scary thoughts in my head. thank you.
I also remember, how we had been, from being just friends to how we can read our minds. You always put yourself in my shoe, thinking and replies to my grumbles and dissatisfaction with the maturity that sometimes i couldn't believe it. You are there for me, giving the unbelievable advice and encouragement, when you can't even help yourself, and here you are, holding me when i almost fall. And how much you're amaze about me, I am too, amaze by you. And, because of you, I walk a step further, climb a step higher. Thank you.
Thanks much too for the prayers, the supports and encouragement. And also the ever ready inbox waiting for me to flood in whenever I need someone to pour out. I felt so loved, just you being detailed to ask, what happen to me and who bullied me when u saw me in a bad shape, or when i just have a bad hair day.
To mom and dad, sebas and jerry.
To all of you.
Thank you!
Friday, December 22, 2006
All this time
I knew you loved meI knew that you would find me
But I pretended not to know
It wasn't cos I was unhappy
It wasn't cos I was blind
Or could I have been when I said
I'm gonna let the wind blow
Leave the past behind
The memories will do just fine
They'll saturate in time
I'm gonna make it on my own
Make it on my own
I took the highway
Built on sand
I knew you'd be there for me
But I refused to hold your hand
The going's good all around me
But deep inside I can't find a reason to
live without you
But can I let the wind blow?
Leave the past behind?
The memories they cloud my mind
I know I crossed the line
Should I just journey on alone
I can't bear to find
The pain I caused you all this time
When I look in your eyes
I'm gonna let the wind blog
Leave the past behind
The memories will do just fine
They'll saturate in time
Don't have to make it all alone
Cos in your eyes I find
The tears that loved me all the time
You loved me all this time
Music and lyrics written by Juwita Suwito
Peace and Love
Last Monday was the first night of the Christmas Celebration organized by KK Town at Gaya Street. For 5 nights, the well-known Gaya Street is having christmas celebration including night market to for fund raising sponsored and joined by churches in KK, christmas carols and others. The opening night itself was so merry. Crowded by people at the street although it's Monday night, we managed to squeeze to the front nearer to the stage. As there were other 2 big screen projector, showing the stage live, therefore it's not so packed around the main stage. Saw VIPS, saw dancers, carols, and also, special guest, Juwita Suwito.
The Crowd
Not a good view, but i'm standing right next to the stage...
The VIPs....
Like to see the lights....
Special Guest, Juwita Suwito....
Carols in Kadazan dialect with the traditional Kadazan dance.
Along with the gongs as accompanion music..
Cherry and Me
Stalls... the monkeys up there remind me of.....*grin*
And the reindeer band reminds me of........ *wink*
food stalls...
The crowd, about 5000 at least was there....
It was quite late, and we went one round of the street. When we reach the end, the people was so crowded that we have to go back to the middle of the street to walk to the other side. Hmm.. while talking about Juwita Suwito's CD as we cannot find the booth selling her latest album, suddenly Cherry hold me back and say, that's the booth!!!
ANd guess what!! Juwita herself was sitting at the booth signing autograph for fans. SO, i quickly grab a CD and asked for signature. Humble person, she opened up the CD wrapping herself though offered help, then signed on it. And, a photo together.
Let Peace, Love, Goodwill Towards all People.
The Crowd
Not a good view, but i'm standing right next to the stage...
The VIPs....
Like to see the lights....
Special Guest, Juwita Suwito....
Carols in Kadazan dialect with the traditional Kadazan dance.
Along with the gongs as accompanion music..
Cherry and Me
Stalls... the monkeys up there remind me of.....*grin*
And the reindeer band reminds me of........ *wink*
food stalls...
The crowd, about 5000 at least was there....
It was quite late, and we went one round of the street. When we reach the end, the people was so crowded that we have to go back to the middle of the street to walk to the other side. Hmm.. while talking about Juwita Suwito's CD as we cannot find the booth selling her latest album, suddenly Cherry hold me back and say, that's the booth!!!
ANd guess what!! Juwita herself was sitting at the booth signing autograph for fans. SO, i quickly grab a CD and asked for signature. Humble person, she opened up the CD wrapping herself though offered help, then signed on it. And, a photo together.
Let Peace, Love, Goodwill Towards all People.
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Xmas Tree
Okay, this year, the xmas tree in my house is not up. As there's no one around all the time and we didn't request to have the christmas carol to come to our place, then, we didn't bother to decorate the house with christmas deco. Not that we don't have the christmas spirit, but ya, just lazy.
Anyways, this photo of the xmas tree was took from KLCC... tall.....
Merry Christmas!
Anyways, this photo of the xmas tree was took from KLCC... tall.....
Merry Christmas!
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Christmas Carol
And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night. An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them,
"Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
in the bus..
cheeze...
mom was stunt.. cause it was a pause for
female vocal during singing
and mom didn't expect it.. haha...
Oh Holy night......
We had a great time, singing from house to house. After the 2nd night, my throat became itchy. Sang too much. Well, i enjoyed myself.
"Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord. This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger."
Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying,
"Glory to God in the highest,
and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests."
Luke 2:8 - 14
Our church carol team
in the bus..
cheeze...
mom was stunt.. cause it was a pause for
female vocal during singing
and mom didn't expect it.. haha...
Oh Holy night......
We had a great time, singing from house to house. After the 2nd night, my throat became itchy. Sang too much. Well, i enjoyed myself.
Monday, December 18, 2006
101th
Ever since I started blogging, I took lots of pictures in any event happening around me. Well, u can say for remembrance, or u can say, so that I can blog about it with photos included. Hmm...
But well, blogging does help to brush up my photoshop skill (touch up all the wrinkles, eye bag, pimples, red-eye reduction and etc). And my writing skills maybe. I haven't found the identity of my blog yet, just blog whatever happen around, from not-so-personal to not-so-current issues.
Hmm... what am i talking about here....
Just want to mark, the 101th post of A World of My Own.
Thank you!
But well, blogging does help to brush up my photoshop skill (touch up all the wrinkles, eye bag, pimples, red-eye reduction and etc). And my writing skills maybe. I haven't found the identity of my blog yet, just blog whatever happen around, from not-so-personal to not-so-current issues.
Hmm... what am i talking about here....
Just want to mark, the 101th post of A World of My Own.
Thank you!
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Sunday
Today was the first sunday since back home. And each time I come back, i look forward to go church, as it looks like reunion of big family. But i didn't know that, a lot of other church members who went outstation either to work or study, came back as well and it really look like Chinese New Year celebration that is coming, not Christmas. Haha. The ones with kids, came back with kids. The ones that went to study, came back and tell the story how's their life is. It just warm my heart, and it really felt like home. Well, for student like me, usually the question is, how's life is, continued on with, got boyfriend or not? hehe... i can only smile...
There was baptism today and 6 babies were baptised. Cute, but yea, maybe I don't look approachable to them, or I look scary to them, they don't seems to like me. Oh, except for some, i'll just catch them and swing them up and down. Some like, some doesn't. blek.
There was baptism today and 6 babies were baptised. Cute, but yea, maybe I don't look approachable to them, or I look scary to them, they don't seems to like me. Oh, except for some, i'll just catch them and swing them up and down. Some like, some doesn't. blek.
6 Years and Today
If I were to take up law course 6 years ago, I will not be the person I am today.
I thought it's already over, until I met them again today. Much speechless, I barely can smile and showed an expressionless face. Hmm.. what am I thinking. Suddenly the word forgiveness just struck me. Christianity always spread the good news of love and forgiveness. And now i look like a hypocryte. Showing love to others but at the same time holding onto this little thing that pulls me back.
But at the same time, if it's not for them, I might be an arrogant and nothing to scared-lose kind of lawyer, full with pride and speak of law as defence even in small talks or conversation.
Yes, I believe, a little bit of different experience can shape up who we are today. And, I think, instead of remembering what had happened, I can only thank them for who I am today.
I thought it's already over, until I met them again today. Much speechless, I barely can smile and showed an expressionless face. Hmm.. what am I thinking. Suddenly the word forgiveness just struck me. Christianity always spread the good news of love and forgiveness. And now i look like a hypocryte. Showing love to others but at the same time holding onto this little thing that pulls me back.
But at the same time, if it's not for them, I might be an arrogant and nothing to scared-lose kind of lawyer, full with pride and speak of law as defence even in small talks or conversation.
Yes, I believe, a little bit of different experience can shape up who we are today. And, I think, instead of remembering what had happened, I can only thank them for who I am today.
Friday, December 15, 2006
Farewell party
Last weekend, we had farewell party for Joni...
Joni will be leaving KL to further studies to Australia next February. Why are we having farewell party so early? Cause she will be going back to Sabah and fly from there to Australia. Hmmm.
1st Round - Friday Night
We had dinner at KFC, yeah, KFC. Then.. we went to hunt for gifts. See, after the dinner, everyone pick a paper with name in it, and we supposed to buy gift for that person. So, before we went to buy gifts, as usual the thick face me, went around and say "okay... i want underwear ya.... M size...". Yo, One Utama is quite big but still we can bump to each other and i go "i want g string ah... " whenever i bump to anyone of them.
So.. we meet again half an hour later....
And.. guess what I got.
A G-String from Topshop. Thanks Siew Kwan.
2nd Round of Farewell with Simply United- Saturday night
The Simply United
Posers.....
Me and Yeng
Yummy Friend Rice...
Yeng and Pei Ling
Joni
3 of us....
3rd Round of Farewell - Monday Night
The core members of the cell had dinner with her again. Just 5 of us. WE had steamboat. Too bad, I'm too hungry, till i forgot to take pictures. So.. it was LOTS of food and LOTS of laughers.
I had fun. Take care joni. God Bless!
Joni will be leaving KL to further studies to Australia next February. Why are we having farewell party so early? Cause she will be going back to Sabah and fly from there to Australia. Hmmm.
1st Round - Friday Night
We had dinner at KFC, yeah, KFC. Then.. we went to hunt for gifts. See, after the dinner, everyone pick a paper with name in it, and we supposed to buy gift for that person. So, before we went to buy gifts, as usual the thick face me, went around and say "okay... i want underwear ya.... M size...". Yo, One Utama is quite big but still we can bump to each other and i go "i want g string ah... " whenever i bump to anyone of them.
So.. we meet again half an hour later....
And.. guess what I got.
A G-String from Topshop. Thanks Siew Kwan.
2nd Round of Farewell with Simply United- Saturday night
The Simply United
Posers.....
Me and Yeng
Yummy Friend Rice...
Yeng and Pei Ling
Joni
3 of us....
3rd Round of Farewell - Monday Night
The core members of the cell had dinner with her again. Just 5 of us. WE had steamboat. Too bad, I'm too hungry, till i forgot to take pictures. So.. it was LOTS of food and LOTS of laughers.
I had fun. Take care joni. God Bless!
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