Half

it's always half empty.

maybe i'm living with perfectionist, that i can't live up to their standard.

it's always half empty glass.

why can't you see that it's half full?

everyday there's always something to complain about.

the day is not crooked, the plant is watered, the food is cooked on the table, the bills are paid, the cars always with filled with oil. what is missing here?

3 months ago....

oh come one. give me a break. things that happened 3 months ago and still not solved?

5 years ago....

what??!! 5 years ago and you still dig it out???

i still can't find my way, the kind of life i want to lead, the values i want to hold on to in life and the life principle that is non-negotiable.

as i'm still staying under parent's roof, and a quarter century old, I'm not totally involved in the society yet. I'm covered, protected and hence, have that perfect idea of how i want my life to be. but yet, everything went wrong when i come back home.

Forgive others as God forgives you. No, i can't see that. People hold grudges.
Love is patient. No, love is selfish.

On one hand, i'm giving up on the values that i thought i'm going to live on. But on the other hand, I wanted to make a difference. to live a different life, from what the adults has showed. I know no one is perfect, but we do live towards perfection, to be better each day.

I still don't believe and never want to live the life like them, to hold grudges, doesn't want to let go, to live each day taking for granted the person sleeping next to you, or even person in the same house under the same roof, or life that you're investing. I don't want to bring on the excess baggage each day as I get older each year.

Life is too short to hold grudges on people. But too bad, not many people appreciate this.

I forgot

I miss being happy.

Do whatever I want.

Be however I want.

Don't need to according to situation and man's face expression.

Don't need to think and rethink of what to say and how to say all the time.

Don't need to keep begging people to get things done.

Don't need to do things that is not even my problem at first.

I really miss, being happy.