well, it just passed 12am and i heard fireworks around but couldn't enjoy the view. yeah, my house is surrounded by trees, sorry, i'm not living in jungle, but just trees around my house. Happy 49th National Day Malaysia. May God Bless our Nation, our Country, our leaders, goverment and citizens, as well as foreigner, tourists and those who stepped on our land.
in case u people was wondering where have i been that i didn't update my blog for more than a week. I was away to Beijing and Hongkong and i just came back this morning. tired, but enjoyed the trip. and shopping too! haha. Snapped more than 800 pictures. will upload nice one soon.
i've got my exam result today. I passed everything. Thank God I'm a senior now.
God Bless!
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
Last Day In Work
Still remember first day in work, I came early, sat at the meeting room waiting for my boss. I looked out from the meeting room, i saw colleagues were busy, walking here and there rushing their work. i thought, maybe it's Monday, that everyone is busy. Law firm does look dull to me.
-firstday of work, after briefing, my boss gave me this 2 files.
For the first week, i was punctual to work everyday. I slept early and woke up very early. I had breakfast with dad everyday, just the 2 of us. But sometimes if i wake up late.....
So, after 2 months, here I am, today, in the office, writing out my experience. Yes, it was exactly 2 months ago.
After 2 months, i became more monkey in the office. I came early to office then only sneak out to breakfast. I asked for early lunch time, and still outside doing some personal matter after the lunch break. keke... but, part of me wasn't who i am 2 months ago, and i've grow, in maturity and knowledge, not physically mind you. haha.
I've learnt a lot, other than the law and court procedure, I've learnt valuable experiences of others that i can use as guidance to my following path in my studies and future career. Most importantly, I get to know these group of people in the firm, which if i choose not to work, i will not get to know them. each of them helped me throughout my working period here and i thank them from the bottom of my heart (oh, i haven't prepare my gift of appreciation to them yet.. hehe). Each life, made a change in my life, not a big change, but just a change that makes it all different.
-my desk... messy i know.. and i look weird.. i know...
-firstday of work, after briefing, my boss gave me this 2 files.
I think he tried to frighten me.
Till now, he never ask me about these 2 cases.
*wide smile*
For the first week, i was punctual to work everyday. I slept early and woke up very early. I had breakfast with dad everyday, just the 2 of us. But sometimes if i wake up late.....
-my breakfast in office....
I had the oppurtunity to go to the court with one of the lawyer in the firm. Dressed with white shirt and black suit, i followed him around. For the first 2 weeks i followed him to the court, i learn nothing about the court and law, but i learnt to socialise with the lawyers. they seemed to know that i'm a new comers, but wait a minute, not a new comers in the law field, but just a student. yea, i have to repeat so many times who am i, what am i doin now, which firm i'm from and which college i'm attending. But well, they were friendly enough to offer a handshake and say hi. i thought, hmm, a good chance to get to know male-single-available lawyer.. haha, that was the motivation i have that i continued to go court with my supervisor.
-me cam whore in office....
Other than doing typing work in the office, i also switch job to fisherman. yes, my favourites at all time. haha. whenever i'm sleepy, i'll start to text everyone, especially those in work too. Sze always reply with 'i'm going to fishing as well, i prepare the fishing equipment. You get the cruise. ' Addy, as far as i can remember, she always tease/scold me. Yeng will start telling me stories. haha. Yea, though far, it seems that they accompanied me in work. Oh, not forgetting, tracy, always put funny icons over our MSN message that i have to minimize my chat windows all the time. Lucky, my boss never caught me chatting before.... *Smile*
-give these to read.
errr.. i just read 1 or 2 pages...
then followed by... cam whore!!haha
So, after 2 months, here I am, today, in the office, writing out my experience. Yes, it was exactly 2 months ago.
After 2 months, i became more monkey in the office. I came early to office then only sneak out to breakfast. I asked for early lunch time, and still outside doing some personal matter after the lunch break. keke... but, part of me wasn't who i am 2 months ago, and i've grow, in maturity and knowledge, not physically mind you. haha.
I've learnt a lot, other than the law and court procedure, I've learnt valuable experiences of others that i can use as guidance to my following path in my studies and future career. Most importantly, I get to know these group of people in the firm, which if i choose not to work, i will not get to know them. each of them helped me throughout my working period here and i thank them from the bottom of my heart (oh, i haven't prepare my gift of appreciation to them yet.. hehe). Each life, made a change in my life, not a big change, but just a change that makes it all different.
-birthday celebration just 2 days ago.....
-another group of colleagues....
-my desk... messy i know.. and i look weird.. i know...
cannot smile nicely when your boss take picture of you.. *bluek*
Thank You for everything,
Ting & Jublee, Advocates and Solicitors,
bosses and colleagues.
May God bless u thousand folds!
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Rant VI
Today......
Late for work, as usual.. since i don't have important work to do, i lazily go work...
In work, did some research in the morning while chatting online.
Lunch.. had pizza with friend..kekeke.. (dun get jealous..)..
Run around to Digi Centre and Maxis Centre to enquiry about my simcard...
Came back to Office, supposedly i plan to take half day leave, but there was a birthday celebration after the lunch, so, i was asked to leave after the cake.
Well, after the cake, my boss gave me work.. *hmmpf*...thursday my last day already.. still got work.. i have reports to make... and he gave me some more work.. which means. i cannot skip too much this week.. bleh...
Tomorrow i'm going to skip half day... (i dun care i dun care i dun care *stamp feet*... )
Well.. that would only be in my wildest dream. I've plan since yesterday which i postpone to today, and now to tomorrow. Not that i'm not a good planner, just that there are more important matters arise that i need to do.. sigh.. hopefully, tomorrow my plan is on....
Okay.... it's 5.30 pm, time to go back. Have a great evening!
Late for work, as usual.. since i don't have important work to do, i lazily go work...
In work, did some research in the morning while chatting online.
Lunch.. had pizza with friend..kekeke.. (dun get jealous..)..
Run around to Digi Centre and Maxis Centre to enquiry about my simcard...
Came back to Office, supposedly i plan to take half day leave, but there was a birthday celebration after the lunch, so, i was asked to leave after the cake.
Well, after the cake, my boss gave me work.. *hmmpf*...thursday my last day already.. still got work.. i have reports to make... and he gave me some more work.. which means. i cannot skip too much this week.. bleh...
Tomorrow i'm going to skip half day... (i dun care i dun care i dun care *stamp feet*... )
Well.. that would only be in my wildest dream. I've plan since yesterday which i postpone to today, and now to tomorrow. Not that i'm not a good planner, just that there are more important matters arise that i need to do.. sigh.. hopefully, tomorrow my plan is on....
Okay.... it's 5.30 pm, time to go back. Have a great evening!
Saturday, August 12, 2006
My age... 25?
| You Are 25 Years Old |
 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
Friday, August 11, 2006
I was tagged...
I was tagged by Addie. I pretended I didn't see it in her blog yesterday. Today she tagged again in my tagboard. Now.. just just now, she IMed me and asked me where's is it.. so.. ms addy.... Here u go....
Favourites...
Rant V
It rained again this morning and the office is very cold. It has been raining everyday since Monday. Morning, afternoon and night. But not continuously, as if it has a breakfast, lunch and dinner break, which is good, that we won't be late for work because of the rain that will cause traffic jam. And we get catch up with some personal matters during the lunch time, running around to post office and bank to settle bills. And during the evening when it's peak time when everyone is off from work, rushing to fetch kids, buy dishes/vegetables, catch up with friends for dinner or just going back home straight after work.
what am i saying.... just merely talking about the weather of these few days. I've got lunch appointment with all my colleagues later, but i don't feel like going. Not in the mood of entertaining, or rather meeting people. I'm back to my own world, keeping everything to myself, having a world of my own. Yes, the only time that i have my own world, is during the lunch break when everyone went out for lunch and i just sit at my own desk by myself, listen to music and surf the net. But yeah, exclude those time that i'm in the toilet, other than that, i have people around me, even when i'm sleeping. I am not complaining, but rather, twist around to find ways to make my life easier.
much of the time, i'm just being fake. Yes, i am fake. I pretend to be happy when i am not. I pretend to be an idiot talking crap when i see that the atmosphere where I am in at that moment is down or when war is about to happen. I pretend to be stupid when people is about to throw anger on me, act like i don't know and yet i think of things to talk about to make people happy.
you say, you can't please everyone, you say it's your life, you can do anything you want, anything... as long as you're happy.
but because you are living in a family, a circle, a community, sometimes we just cannot runaway from the responsibility and obligation that we need to take up as the position we are in, as a child, as someone's children, as someone's siblings, as someone's friend and etc.
if only people become less self-centred... life would be easier....
2 minutes to go before lunch.... and i still don't feel like going... yes... i am being immature today, can't differentiate between personal life and work. But at least, i still can smile but not out of the heart, i pretend to do work when i wasn't paying attention....
-continue later-
the rain stopped again, as if giving time for people to have lunch.
I'm back in the office, open up the files and take out all the papers, place on the table everywhere, as if i'm doing work, but actually, i'm surfing net and blogging.. (shh.. don't tell my boss ya...). I just can't concentrate on my work, after reading and reading so many times, i still cannot understand what i'm reading, therefore, better surf net and enjoy myself... kekekeke....
It rained again, suddenly, heavily. It reminded me of the last few times i ran in the rain.........
*listening to.... "through the rain"*
there was a time in college, it rained heavily so i waited. suddenly it stopped. it seemed to me that it will stop raining for a while, so i quickly ran out, towards my car.. which is.. 2 minutes walk from college. just about 30 steps, it rained again, heavily. Gosh.. i look back to college and i look front. I continued walk. quite embarassing to walk back to college. i was all wet. lucky enough, i'm wearing black that time.
oh.. another embarassing one.. i was walking back home from college, rained heavily, and i still remember, i was wearing a cream colour pants. but, wearing a black underwear. *blush*. a girl friend chase after me from behind and told me. *blush* i got my jacket and tied around my waist, quickly walked back home.
the last time that i remember was, walking from car to the apartment with addy. we shared an unbrella, but it rained heavily, that half of me was wet and half of her was wet.. but i think she enjoyed it, because she screamed happily all the way until we reached the lobby of the building.... *roll eyes and shake head*
okay.. i shall stop. it's 5pm now.. keke....
time to go back home! God Bless! Have great weekend!
what am i saying.... just merely talking about the weather of these few days. I've got lunch appointment with all my colleagues later, but i don't feel like going. Not in the mood of entertaining, or rather meeting people. I'm back to my own world, keeping everything to myself, having a world of my own. Yes, the only time that i have my own world, is during the lunch break when everyone went out for lunch and i just sit at my own desk by myself, listen to music and surf the net. But yeah, exclude those time that i'm in the toilet, other than that, i have people around me, even when i'm sleeping. I am not complaining, but rather, twist around to find ways to make my life easier.
much of the time, i'm just being fake. Yes, i am fake. I pretend to be happy when i am not. I pretend to be an idiot talking crap when i see that the atmosphere where I am in at that moment is down or when war is about to happen. I pretend to be stupid when people is about to throw anger on me, act like i don't know and yet i think of things to talk about to make people happy.
you say, you can't please everyone, you say it's your life, you can do anything you want, anything... as long as you're happy.
but because you are living in a family, a circle, a community, sometimes we just cannot runaway from the responsibility and obligation that we need to take up as the position we are in, as a child, as someone's children, as someone's siblings, as someone's friend and etc.
if only people become less self-centred... life would be easier....
2 minutes to go before lunch.... and i still don't feel like going... yes... i am being immature today, can't differentiate between personal life and work. But at least, i still can smile but not out of the heart, i pretend to do work when i wasn't paying attention....
-continue later-
the rain stopped again, as if giving time for people to have lunch.
I'm back in the office, open up the files and take out all the papers, place on the table everywhere, as if i'm doing work, but actually, i'm surfing net and blogging.. (shh.. don't tell my boss ya...). I just can't concentrate on my work, after reading and reading so many times, i still cannot understand what i'm reading, therefore, better surf net and enjoy myself... kekekeke....
It rained again, suddenly, heavily. It reminded me of the last few times i ran in the rain.........
*listening to.... "through the rain"*
there was a time in college, it rained heavily so i waited. suddenly it stopped. it seemed to me that it will stop raining for a while, so i quickly ran out, towards my car.. which is.. 2 minutes walk from college. just about 30 steps, it rained again, heavily. Gosh.. i look back to college and i look front. I continued walk. quite embarassing to walk back to college. i was all wet. lucky enough, i'm wearing black that time.
oh.. another embarassing one.. i was walking back home from college, rained heavily, and i still remember, i was wearing a cream colour pants. but, wearing a black underwear. *blush*. a girl friend chase after me from behind and told me. *blush* i got my jacket and tied around my waist, quickly walked back home.
the last time that i remember was, walking from car to the apartment with addy. we shared an unbrella, but it rained heavily, that half of me was wet and half of her was wet.. but i think she enjoyed it, because she screamed happily all the way until we reached the lobby of the building.... *roll eyes and shake head*
okay.. i shall stop. it's 5pm now.. keke....
time to go back home! God Bless! Have great weekend!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Rant IV
Out of the plan of the night, i joined mom to her cell group (christian groups).
Just in praise and worship, suddenly, all the songs seems right to me....
It reminds me of how people say, when they're in love, all the love songs seems to express their feelings at the moment, or when they're heart broken, those sad love songs seems to be talking about them...
.... and the songs we sang just now, seems like an assurance to me...
how many times that you're stuck in between, don't know what to do, don't know what to say, or when you want to do/say something, you mouth just can't utter the words, or when you found your words and u want to express yourself, but situation doesn't permit?
... and we still continue on singing, while me, supressing all the feelings inside me...
Just in praise and worship, suddenly, all the songs seems right to me....
It reminds me of how people say, when they're in love, all the love songs seems to express their feelings at the moment, or when they're heart broken, those sad love songs seems to be talking about them...
.... and the songs we sang just now, seems like an assurance to me...
how many times that you're stuck in between, don't know what to do, don't know what to say, or when you want to do/say something, you mouth just can't utter the words, or when you found your words and u want to express yourself, but situation doesn't permit?
... and we still continue on singing, while me, supressing all the feelings inside me...
tears does ruin makeup, but makeup can do the covering after the cry
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Trip... Cancelled.
Supposedly this week is my last week working as student attachment. But today, boss happily asked/insisted that i stay till end of the month after knowing that my trip to Hongkong and Beijing is cancelled. Yes, it's cancelled.
I thought it's still okay, as brother sort-of ask me to come along with him to Australia end of September. I was just.... happy for nothing, it's only a sort of thingie. So, trip to Australia.... I wasn't part of the plan.
Now.. you can laugh at me.
I thought it's still okay, as brother sort-of ask me to come along with him to Australia end of September. I was just.... happy for nothing, it's only a sort of thingie. So, trip to Australia.... I wasn't part of the plan.
Now.. you can laugh at me.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Lazy Monday
Today today.....
I was late for work... again... I've never been early after the 1st week of work... *shame* I went to the same coffee shop that i go almost everyday for breakfast and i eat the same thing everytime i go there. just breakfast, doesn't matter.
I was sooooooooooooooooo free today. I helped colleague to do some of her work. Issue cheques and do some photocopy work. Nothing much. But, i skipped lunch, as it rained heavily.
Ate some char siu pao just now while driving back home. Was actually holding the pao while driving. People can see that i actually turn my steering together with the charsiu pao turning around.. hehe....
that's me today!
I was late for work... again... I've never been early after the 1st week of work... *shame* I went to the same coffee shop that i go almost everyday for breakfast and i eat the same thing everytime i go there. just breakfast, doesn't matter.
I was sooooooooooooooooo free today. I helped colleague to do some of her work. Issue cheques and do some photocopy work. Nothing much. But, i skipped lunch, as it rained heavily.
Ate some char siu pao just now while driving back home. Was actually holding the pao while driving. People can see that i actually turn my steering together with the charsiu pao turning around.. hehe....
that's me today!
Practice makes perfect - or rather Perfectly Imperfect
I was an idiot when i'm 17... and still now. haha. never think of having a bf. haha!
Like what I’ve said, I don’t even know what I want in mind, today I like orange, the next day I like apple. My priority in life, at this moment, is my studies and career. You can say that having relationship is not going to affect your studies. But my passion, is people, family and studies. I shall not disclose my own experience, not because it’s a bad experience, but, I shall share when the right time comes.
Upon all the fundamentals that is important in a relationship, whether it's trust or tolerate, whether it's being patience and tolerate, all that u can name...
Above everything, FAITH, HOPE and LOVE remains, but the greatest of these is love.
Rant III
Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.
Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.
Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.
Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.
Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."
Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."
Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.
Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship. You must be friends before you can be lovers.
Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.
Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.
Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.
Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart. Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before. If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have. If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.
The secret of our being is not only to live but to have something to live for.
Like Vs Love
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing, And your voice caught within your chest?
It isn't Love, it's Like.
You can't keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right?
It isn't Love, it's Lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
It isn't Love, it's Luck.
Do you want them because you know they're there?
It isn't Love, it's Loneliness.
Are you there because it's what everyone wants?
It isn't Love, it's Loyalty.
Do you stay for their confessions of Love, because you don't want to hurt them?
It isn't Love, it's Pity.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand?
It isn't Love, it's being Unconfident.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat?
It isn't Love, it's Infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them?
It isn't Love, it's Friendship.
Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of?
It isn't Love, it's a Lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake?
It isn't Love, it's Charity.
Does your heart ache and break when they're sad?
Then it's Love.
Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret?
Then it's Love.
Do you accept their faults because they're a part of who they are?
Then it's Love.
Do you cry for their pain, even when they're strong?
Then it's Love.
Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?
Then it's Love.
But do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and elation pulls you close and holds you?
Then it's Love.
Would you give them your heart, your life, your death?
Then it's Love.
Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
Love
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
It doesn't matter what love definition you have, or reasons being in relationship. It doesn't matter how you view or see what is a relationship, it doesn't matter what the future holds in the relationship. Whatever you do, it's still you and to you only, whatever you do, you will have to take your own responsibility towards your own action and cause. Whether you're just a playboy/girl, or you just want to flirt around with this guy/girl, or you are serious in relationship but nothing more than just merely seeing each other, or you both are not dating but enter into courtship, it's your story, it's your history. Same goes to those who were in relationship before, whether it was a good or bad experience, don't hold yourself back from things that could turn out to be a turn point in your life.
sigh... why i make it so complicated.
conclusion is...
you is you.. me is me..
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
It doesn't matter what love definition you have, or reasons being in relationship. It doesn't matter how you view or see what is a relationship, it doesn't matter what the future holds in the relationship. Whatever you do, it's still you and to you only, whatever you do, you will have to take your own responsibility towards your own action and cause. Whether you're just a playboy/girl, or you just want to flirt around with this guy/girl, or you are serious in relationship but nothing more than just merely seeing each other, or you both are not dating but enter into courtship, it's your story, it's your history. Same goes to those who were in relationship before, whether it was a good or bad experience, don't hold yourself back from things that could turn out to be a turn point in your life.
The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.
sigh... why i make it so complicated.
conclusion is...
you is you.. me is me..
Thursday, August 03, 2006
Rants II
Now, again, I'm not against nor have bad perception or whatsoever against people who is involving/involved before in dating or relationships in early age. Your opinion, your view, your priority in life now is nothing got to do with me, and therefore, my rants have nothing go to do with you. I'm just sharing my experiences and my view. But again, exceptions within the exceptions, to those whom i care, please take care of yourself. If the guy whom you're seeing now breaks your heart, i'm so going to break his leg. And to guys, if the girl cheats on you, make sure you dump her before she dumps you..kekekekkeeke.....
As i continue, the conversation the other day between my 17yr old Friend A having puppy love thinking against me-soon-to-be-24 having to view relationships as courtship and not just merely dating ended up me 'draw back my sword' and.... rest my case.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Rants I
Just the other day, I get to talk to a friend about boy girl relationships over MSN, while me working. At first, it was just exchanging of opinion and experiences, but later on, the atmosphere became worst as both side did not agree with the opinions and later argued back with own reasoning. Later i found, it was my fault. My friend A, is only 17.
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