The Aftermath

So I've finished the exam. The brain still a bit retarded, still a bit lagging, processor not that fast. The event is so strong and dramatic that it still affect us somehow.

1. A friend was watching tv and suddenly, it just pop out on her mind, why is she watching tv. She has something important to do. The next question is, oh... exam over, no more studying.

2. During the exam, my messages always ends with gambateh or add oil. Going to bed messages would be "rest well and nights", and not sweet dreams like i always do. Now, it's sweet dreams and not rest well. -__-

3. For past one month, I eat a few meals per day but eat little per meal. Cause afraid of being sleepy after meal. Now, I had 2 meals only and it's full meal till i feel bloated.

4. Waking up in the morning and need to convince myself, it's after exam and we got nothing to do.

So, right after exam. I went,dinner, clubbing, partying, hanging out, lepaking, trips, lepak again, talking, meeting up, talking nonsense, etc as much as i can. not forgetting, FB-ing as much as I can with the games :P

Parents of the gang we were supportive, telling us that we earn it to have this two months break and ask us to chill all the way, and start stress when only result is about to release.

So, although one side of me already predicted the results, but friend say, must keep finger cross, continue praying and hope for the best. So, I can't give up while my supporters are praying right. So, just pray for grace on examiner's side, to be a little bit more gracious on marking our paper. Amen for that.

In the mean time, where shall i go next :p

ps: I still can't upload my photos to websites, but will do starting tomm, since I'm going back home.
pss: Have fun holidaying and chilling and do whatever you want, fellow CLPians!!! will miss you guys!!!

After 2 Papers

It was not as easy as i thought, not the paper I'm talking about. The stress coping and management, the optimistic and positive thinking, which I thought I handle it so well all this while, came crushed down. It wasn't really that easy. Doesn't matter about the paper and the examination, I thought, with the confidence (in going through and survive) and the positive thinking, I already win half the battle. But no, the stress of examination overpowered me and got me unsettled and restless.

Seriously, this is nothing like other examinations that I sat before. After all these years of uni, more than 10 examinations, this is really nothing like before. Just today, when I read the questions during reading time, I know what the question wants, I know how to answer. Just that my brain went blank and i coudn't recall any cases. I can't even project my notes in my mind.

It's really not about the certificate now, we all just want to sit for it and survive through it. Doesn't really what is the outcome, going through the preparation for examination till the examination day, and survive through the papers do build character. Friend was right, it does build a character in us. The fighting spirit, the never give up spirit, the perseverance and the persistant spirit, and also the stronger us. A lot of times, we're at the verge of giving up, chuck it aside and walk away, but because, knowing that we're in this together, pull us through and it does hold us together till the very end.

Well, it's not the end yet. We're just half way through, and thinking back, We are all Champions. So proud of ourselves, said a friend. Doesn't matter what is the outcome, the fact that we sat for it, proves we're conqueror, says another friend. I'm so proud, having to call them, my pillar of support. Thank you, for being strong for me, when I was at the verge of slipping it away.

I shall be stronger and fly higher. Gambateh people!

The Day

The day we've been anticipating much has come, the day that will determine whether there's a new beginning or repetition of the old one. Also the day, that whatever hard work, toil and sweat we've made, we shall put in writing. And, the day where, all our parents keep looking at the watch and pray for their children throughout the time. Also, the day where, we go out to the battle and fight for our future.

It's the day, of the starting of the Certificate of Legal Practise examination. *sweat*

Wish me all the very best!

2 days and 11 days

Currently camping at home, with loads of food stored. Didn't see any human for few days, only books. SO lifeless. Can't wait to get over this. But at the same time, I don't want it to be over that soon.....

After all this and if I pass...
probably going back home for good, which means, leaving behind everything i have here and start all over again back in hometown. there are a lot of things i'll miss here. My pillar of support, mostly, here.

Anyways, the exam hasn't start yet and we're planning for holidays after the exam. woo hoo~

Alright, shall go back to work. Gambateh people!!

dumb auntie

Just now evening, I went to Popular Shop at the Ikano Centre to get some stationaries and just as I was queuing up, there was a lady in her 60s, stood right in front of me, holding onto the barrier that divides the line. Over the next line, there was a kid almost the height of my waist, probably around 4 years old, quite babbly, was sulking at her mom. Quite an interesting conversation they had. I think he wanted story book in english but her mom aka siu jie auntie only took the malay language ones.

Kiddo, you lazy girl...
mom, later all ur books gather dust at home....

this was only part of the conversation. As the queue was long and slow, i overheard their conversation for about 10 minutes.

Then it's the auntie's turn to pay. RM113 in total. Suddenly don't know why, the old lady in front of me, talked to the sales girl that was attending the kid's mom.

What just happened. They didn't bring the member card and the siu jie auntie was just standing there looking at her mother in law i suppose, and not talking to the sales girl. So, the sales girl told the mother in law, they need a member card. the mother in law told her, they didn't bring it, and bla bla bla, trying to persuade the salesgirl to give them a discount. And the whole time, the auntie didn't try to solve anything, just stood there, only re-phrase what the sales girl said to the old lady when she cannot understand what the sales girl just said.

Then the old lady told the kiddo to come again the next day with the member card. Still, the auntie was just standing there.

I was like... What the Hell!!! I so wanted to shout, for goodness sake, can someone just give them the stupid card. I don have one, so, if not, i would just pass mine to them.

It's not about the card. It's about the siu jie auntie. seriously, so impolite, not well mannered, not respect. she thinks that she's still 16 year old sulking at her mom. my gosh. the face looks like 40 to me. Oh come on....!!! the whole time didn't try to do anything, let the mother in law talk, who can't even converse in malay properly and mix with english. SHe can't understand the sales girl either. My gosh. Not sure whether the auntie know what is paiseh or not, some 10 to 15 person behind us queuing up witnessing all this.

The bottom line is, our kid will reflect us, just like a mirrow. How u sulk at them, at 4 years old, they will know how to be sulky too. Poor mother in law.....