Tuesday, May 29, 2007

3 Days

Countdown, less than 3 days to my first paper.

Having a break now.

Not really enjoy memorising, just can't wait for exam to over.

Well, all the best people!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Untitled XIV

Troubled. Heart pumping so fast. Concentration Gone. Adding all equals too stress.

Man just can't run away from problems and everyday we face challenges.

Why, we asked.

life is about choices and every decision is in our hand, but why is the heart doesn't want to cooperate with the brain?

Exam is coming, and I'm running as fast as i can to meet the target of the day. Well, often, the plan fails and day by day, I'll say, I'll get it done by tomm.. and everyday i say the same thing.

I'm still a human, with feelings. can't run away from problems, can't run away from other matters that i need to face.

I can only pray hard. I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me.

You ask me, does it work?

Why not you try?

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My papers...
31st May - EU Law - 2pm
4th June - Tort Law - 9pm
8th June - Land Law - 9pm
11th June - Law of Trust - 9pm

if you happen to think of me on mentioned date, please say a lil pray for me.

(having a break now... still can post.. meaning.. i'm still fine.. hahaha.... )

Saturday, May 19, 2007

I Pray

a lot of times, in many occasions, sad or happy, we seek people, whether to share the sadness or double the happiness.

and in some of the times, people does not understand the disappointment that we are going through, the challenges that we're facing and the crucial moment of that point of time that is waiting for us. people may not understand too, the satisfaction that we have after fulfilling something, or the moment of gladness, or the joy that is brought from strangers to you that no one can understand.

when no one can understand, when no one seems to fit in the situation that can fit well in your shoe and feel for you, when no one can say a word of comfort that really ease that pain or word of encouragement that can lift you up, the only person that can help yourself, is you. whether you choose to sit longer after a fall, or continue to run, it's your choice.

in times of struggle, when you build your foundation so firm, or you thought you have a foundation firm, just one word of discouragement from others may break you up. in times of trying hard to stand up and not to allow myself to fall, just one word from others may tend to break u down.

I can only pray, and seek strength from Almighty One, for not by my strength but His. not by my might, but His.

And I pray, may you draw strength from Him, for He, loves you the most!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Much Contended

I had been thinking, and in fear as i wait...

At my age, there is people that earned their first One Million dollar.
There is also people that already got married and have kids.
There is also people, started their career and climbing the corporate ladder.

And those that is younger than me, not even received their golden key towards freedom yet, but fly even more higher than me, further than me, having more freedom than me.

Now i'm not complaining....

Last December, i was back at home during the break. After a wedding dinner of a close friend, a group of us went to yumcha together. nice cool place to hang out, and the group that I'm with, was my lil brother's peers. *grin*. And, dad called 3 times just to findout-makesure-askmetocomebackhomefast. It was 10 minutes gap in between the calls and 2 of the friends actually shouted over the phone "don't worry lah uncle... she's fine....". -_-'''

If you know me well, i have curfew too. 12.30am for festive season. 11pm for normal days.

I am really not complaining.

I know I'm very much a spoilt girl of the family.

I'm very much contended with what I have now....

I am just.......... afraid that my dad calls. Cause that stupid school sent warning letter to my dad. I didn't attend any revision class conducted by the school.

%*#**&*#*$*&^#*$&*#&

Pray that my dad don't scold me.......

Sunday, May 06, 2007

Hey you

Sometimes life is just like driving through the straight highway, we didn’t take time to drive slowly and watch the scenery around, rather, drive through it fast, hoping that we arrive the destination faster, just like fulfilling our dream to come true, but we forgotten, the things that we’ve neglected.

It’s been a month plus I’m in battle with the books. After the honeymoon last semester, I started get serious with studies and coping up with whatever that I’ve left last semester. How much I’ve covered now, how much more left to cover? I really don’t know. I just know, I’ve neglected lots of people around me.


-In the library this morning-

How are you?

I wanted to ask.


It’s always the universal answer that seems to slip in as excuse for the responsibility that has been neglected, for omissions and duty to care that is not fulfilled. And sometimes we take it for granted, thinking, people will understand, I was busy.


-M&Ms.... a must to burn midnight oil every night-

It’s been a while.

Today, after a month plus hiding at home, we had a group discussion for the first time I think, every since this semester starts. Everyone’s been up to different subjects and topics and we didn’t discuss much in the end. I didn’t do much as well, was busy catching up and keep in touch with friends. Talking from how have you been lately and what you’ve been up to, to hot news in the college and to family related busy body news.


-the breakfast today, with Anson, Tracy and yeng-

I miss you much.

Everyone is talking about plans after exam. Parties definitely part of it, holiday plans, working plans and etc. Some looks forward to the holidays. Some looks forward to the coming semester in UK. But well, whatever plan there is in mind, what I really feeling is, the semester is coming to an end and after the exam, whoever that is staying, staying. Whoever that is leaving to UK, leaving.


-newly bought headset, without the bear of course. both are yeng's-

Phone calls are within reach, messages are just within seconds. But…


And me, is leaving too. Praise the Lord, I’ve received conditional offer to one of the good Uni in UK. Though the condition is a bit higher than the other offers given to me, but it stretches me to move a bit forward, forcing myself to dump in more effort, moving me to the higher level, set me to a higher target. Pray that I pass with flying colours.

Hope you’re good.


It was a long day, after the study group and dinner at Auntie’s place, now I’m back home lazying. Watched the Malaysian singing competition just now with Auntie’s family and I actually sent my votes 3 times. Man, I didn’t even vote for election just few years back when I just turned the right age to vote. Yeah, I voted because that guy in the finalist is from Sabah. Hehe.

Got to go now. Tired.

God bless you, Have a Blessed Sunday!

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Impossible

Man says impossible, but God says thru Him, everything is possible.

In times of trial, where you strength, mind, heart and spirit is trying to expand beyond its capacity, hold your faith upon Him and draw strength from Him.

In times of battling with studies, I remember, to thank Him for all He have done.

May you be strong, reaching the impossible, for sky is the limit and He's always there for you.

God bless!