Memories I

I've start picking myself up. Continue up journey. Although lately i've been picking up a lot of do you remember this and do you remember that, but that doesn't mean I'm still living in the past. They are great memories that i want to remember, to keep me going. A lot of people find me weird, a lot of people find that there's something abnormal about me. But, I can say, I treasure my friends a lot, more than just friendship, more than just hi and bye friend or people that have to common interest with me. it's life that I'm investing.

WE went to an adventure park in Sabah just the other day. The trip that i went back after the church camp, and had brother and girlfriend came back from Australia and had Yeng came over from KL. Hehe. We went almost all the famous seafood restaurant. Well, not that i'm rich, but, Sabah is well-known from its seafood. hihihi.

Okay.. the trip. Mom took photograph. With the new camera. Amazing... mom has the creative art talent in her blood. That's how my brother gets it. But now me. So, she claim as well, she's good in photographing. Well, couldn't agree more. I love the pictures.

3 red quad bikes for girls, one black for guys.
I was the only one looking at the camera, while the read excited.

We rode by the beach, it was so fun.
with the wind blow and the sound of the wave.

(a lot more picture to come. busy now. post them later.)

If Only

How many times as we look back, if only...

I live my life, without regrets. As much as i know, as much as i remember, i'm not regret with any incident in my life, be it good or bad.

But I have one now.

I didn't cry when i first got my result. I didn't get mad and start asking God, why is this happening to me. I continue to pray, in hoping that, there's a small door opening for me.

But now, it's all shut.

It was because of my silly mistake, that i didn't look at my timetable properly, hence landed me in where I am now. At least, blaming yourself because you're not good enough or clever enough is not as bad as blaming yourself for the careless mistake that you brought upon yourself.

After about 3 weeks, at last, i cried badly, asking for God's comfort. I felt so much alone, trying to look for a place of comfort, encouragement and love. I'm always strong and stand up high, but this time, i find no motivation for me to move on. The independent me, finally crushed down and having pieces of me all over the places.

I dare not tell my parents about it. at the age of 25, such mistake is not permitted. what more making it. I know, I'm in a position better than lots of people, but, i'm just not satisfied. And worst still, blaming myself.

Lesson to learn, please check your exam timetable.

New Chapter

Finally, I'm settled down and ready to face the new season again. Year 3 and also the final year of my degree. It has been 3 weeks since the last time I blogged. Lots of things happened, ups and downs, but Praise God, I'm here now.

It turned out to be alright, after i decided to stay in KL for year 3, after the appeals to several uni regarding my application to transfer was turned down. Not so sad about my result, what's sad is not being staying the same place as my fella gang, whom now already in UK. My results, including the one that i need to resit, my average is 55%. But since it's a burden to carry on one subject to final year, according to fella counsellors And since my result now in 2:2 on the way to 2:1, i decided to stay.

So, wish me luck with my final year! I know, God place me here with a greater purpose!