05.12.07

I was digging into my hardisk, looking for my favourite show, Devil Wears Prada but nowhere to be seen. Not sure if i've deleted it, or i saved it somewhere. Just the other day i was sharing with a friend about life and work and i told her, I don't mind having a work like the girl in Prada as i like the stress of work and i enjoy it. Something which i wanted to do, before i go back home and settle down. But a lot of people doesn't agree with me, having love and work to choose, many would choose love. I don't know, as i've never been in the situation before, having to choose between love and work but one thing i can control now, is not having that love.

That friend of mine, is working as, not to say her dream work, but one of the work that she enjoys. the stress of working with people and getting things done, especially the challenges that she deals with everyday is different. Well, you know, human, behaviour changes everyday, hence given her different kind of challenges (read: trouble) almost everyday. And the sleepless nights that she couldn't even remember how long has she been staying awake, without sleeping and asked if she has been sleeping, she can't remember when did she sleep. But well, not talking about the pay, but she enjoyed her work very much. In work like this, of course you can foresee that either she doesn't have love life, or her boyfriend is very much, neglected.

I can see that I'm going into that direction, working and stress, very much an alcoholic. I just feel that I won't satisfied with what i have if i don't go out there and experience the big society before returning home. It will only take a few years, to be away from home and build my own career. But yet, i can't have the best of both world. Somehow, something needed to be sacrifice. Back to my friend, having to dump lots of time in work, she realised that, in the end of day, she doesn't have many friends around and the group of people that she used to hang out with, somehow, no longer have her in the circle. Feeling disconnected, she realised, she doesn't gain much end of the day. Well, that makes me think, is that the way i want to lead my life? But it's just for a couple of years.

Well, at least, for that friend, she still have me. You're just tired, i said. It just need someone, to say, you'll be alright, and you will have the courage and strength to walk a few more miles.

Although the road seems so long and you feel that you're alone,
keep walking and remember to look left and right,
for there's people, walking with you at the side of the track.
Just a lil bit more, and you'll reach your destination soon.