Last Day

Today, officially was my last day in work. After 6 weeks of training in the law firm, i finally had another working experience added in my resume. There's nothing much that i've learnt. Everything looks odd and normal to me. Going to court, meeting up lawyers, talk to the boss, preparing documents, nothing special about it. Except for once, that I met clients and in the process of getting him to sign the affidavit of service, I had a great (read:trouble) in explaining what is the documents and the progress of his case.



After 6 weeks, I gathered my stationaries and returned it back to the administrator of the office. I went into the office after lunch today and found out that I was robbed. haha. My calculator, ink pad and eraser was taken by a colleague. bleh. she smiled sheepishly at me.

I clean up my desk, check all the drawers and delete everything that i've saved and installed inside the computer, including the history of websites that i visited (yea.. i don want ppl to know that i visited the yellow page :p), the documents that i opened and the songs that i listened to. Not a trace in the computer, before i shut down the computer, i deleted my MSN account.

Having to finish my training period in the firm means that my result is coming very near to me. Am worried at the same time excited. Thou result is mine and mine alone, but it seems like there is a lot of other people's name on top of the result slip. Yes, I am not quite alone in person, but lotsa people connected to me. I received a parcel from Cardiff University today, and was excited with stuff that is inside. Mom heard me and say "don't get too excited. You will never know whether you're confirm going or not".

yesterday, i discussed about the air ticket with an Aunt in church, and she asked "Why? You don't have confident in yourself?". Once again, it reminds me whether I am dreaming and reaching for the impossible or have i tried my best to make things possible to me. People don't seems to understand. They don't understand how did I go through my exam. How did i handle my stress, and cope with it. They don't understand, why did i cry in stress and how did i brave through it. They don't understand how tough is it to even make it happen, but we've already tried. I've already tried my best. But trying is not enough. People wants to see the result.

I'll just surrender all to God, for i know, He holds tomorrow.