I know i am siao cha boh. Was advised by mr lil lecturer to read International Trade for Commercial Law. So, i came back home, printed the notes out and pass midnight just now then only i start reading. I've never read this topic before, I've never attended class on this before, in fact, this subject i self-study. so, tell me if i'm crazy. but i've done my memorising for this subject, so, just add one in case.
well, all i need is to pray right. God will bless me. Just that, to be on the safe side, i better add one more topic in my hand, then will be more confident. what kind of bullet attack me also i can counterfeit back. Amen yea! haha....
K, i better go sleep. Nights everyone!
Monday, May 12, 2008
Friday, May 09, 2008
5 Days to Exam
hmm.... in the midst of lil break before continue working. Yes, it's 5 days to my exam. Doing good so far, memorising cases and pumping in as much as i can. Just a bit weird as i don't feel the exam stress. maybe i've studying consistently. Just memorising, I used up 2 days to memorise one chapter. How slow!
Anyway, some of the friends going to finish their exam in an hour time, some just finished one paper, and some like me, haven't start exam yet. Can't wait!! in the midst of preparing for exam, we're planning for holidays!! hahahhaa.... can't wait.. can't wait!!
K.... gottta continue eat my notes!
To those sitting for exam, All the best!!
Oh, ignore the names bottom. those are jurists names which i need to memorise. >.< Notice there were 2 Johns. If onlynthe others name John as well, hahaha...
Anyway, some of the friends going to finish their exam in an hour time, some just finished one paper, and some like me, haven't start exam yet. Can't wait!! in the midst of preparing for exam, we're planning for holidays!! hahahhaa.... can't wait.. can't wait!!
K.... gottta continue eat my notes!
To those sitting for exam, All the best!!
Oh, ignore the names bottom. those are jurists names which i need to memorise. >.< Notice there were 2 Johns. If onlynthe others name John as well, hahaha...
Saturday, May 03, 2008
03.05.08 - Part II
It's Saturday again. Today was a not-so-good day but still glad and rejoice. It's always that on saturday that I'm quite down in the mood. Most probably because i've been attending church service alone, for the past few weeks. If I see any familiar faces, i'll sit next to them. If not, i'll sit by myself. But today, I next to an uncle who doesn't pay attention during praise and worship. Hmm. The projector was "attacked" a few times and the computer went blue screen and the uncle "eh, physical memory....". K, he was singing while looking around, which annoyed me. And on my right side, an auntie who kept shaking her the whole time. She shaked every few minutes,shaked until the body shakes and i can feel the vibration, and it made me dizzy.
I can't help but to think, why am i alone again. Really, no one will know if i don't attend church. I can't help to think back what I've gotten for the past 8 years here in I know i've been missing in action for the past 3 years. Not sure whether i was too busy with my work that i've forgotten about investing in people, therefore i'm quite alone. No, i'm not being self-sympathy. But that's quite sad, and i can't help but crying during the praise and worship. with all the noise of the drum and the electric guitar, it just sanked in and i just stood there trying to sing along. But it was good, just being me and me.
It's been a while, and i'm now feeling the exchaustion. I can't wait to go back home, and to be myself. Just tired leaving up to expectation of people, trying to be the person that others want me to be. And all the disappointment that i get, making me tired. I know, it's my life huh. But we're in a community connected so much to each other that we couldn't really do what we wanted to do.
So, i went pasar malam just now. Pasar malam has been great for the past few weeks. the only place that i go to walk around and relax. can't wait for exam to be over. i'll buy all the food that i want to eat and walk as long as i want.
ciao. back to studies.
take care people!!
I can't help but to think, why am i alone again. Really, no one will know if i don't attend church. I can't help to think back what I've gotten for the past 8 years here in I know i've been missing in action for the past 3 years. Not sure whether i was too busy with my work that i've forgotten about investing in people, therefore i'm quite alone. No, i'm not being self-sympathy. But that's quite sad, and i can't help but crying during the praise and worship. with all the noise of the drum and the electric guitar, it just sanked in and i just stood there trying to sing along. But it was good, just being me and me.
It's been a while, and i'm now feeling the exchaustion. I can't wait to go back home, and to be myself. Just tired leaving up to expectation of people, trying to be the person that others want me to be. And all the disappointment that i get, making me tired. I know, it's my life huh. But we're in a community connected so much to each other that we couldn't really do what we wanted to do.
So, i went pasar malam just now. Pasar malam has been great for the past few weeks. the only place that i go to walk around and relax. can't wait for exam to be over. i'll buy all the food that i want to eat and walk as long as i want.
ciao. back to studies.
take care people!!
03.05.08
10 days to exam, and i'm still working on it. Doing the 2nd round revision, which re-check the notes i've done and write (read: copy) some essays. But well, though it seems almost done, like 85% done, but there's always a fear that the materials that i've prepared is not enough. Ahh well, what is not enough, what can you write in 45 minutes per question, nothing much. Anyways.....
Saw this when i throw the bottles of chicken essence that i drank. don't know how many are they here, but i know i've thrown a lot. average 2 per bottle per day, it didn't make me sleep less. I still sleep at least 8 hours per day. oh, last night was 10 hours. ya ya, i know i'm a pig. ty say, maybe my body is immune to chicken essence. Oh, there was one night i drank
vitamin C booster before i sleep, and that night i slept 12 hours. So, not Vitamin C before sleep.
Alright, i better go sleep now. Gambate people!! You have my support, you have my prayer, you have my love, you have my blessings, and God is with you!
God bless, have a productive weekend!!
Saw this when i throw the bottles of chicken essence that i drank. don't know how many are they here, but i know i've thrown a lot. average 2 per bottle per day, it didn't make me sleep less. I still sleep at least 8 hours per day. oh, last night was 10 hours. ya ya, i know i'm a pig. ty say, maybe my body is immune to chicken essence. Oh, there was one night i drank
vitamin C booster before i sleep, and that night i slept 12 hours. So, not Vitamin C before sleep.
Alright, i better go sleep now. Gambate people!! You have my support, you have my prayer, you have my love, you have my blessings, and God is with you!
God bless, have a productive weekend!!
Sunday, April 20, 2008
20.04.08
Today i went to class an hour earlier, which is NOT me. am known for not being punctual, what more being early. Haha. Class was postponed to an hour later, which non of the classmates thought of telling me. And a few of them told me the same excuse after i asked them one by one, why they didn't tell me. "i'm just helping you to be early. See... you're early today!!". grrr.. even mr lecturer said the same thing. -__-'''
Still, in the midst of preparing for exam, and troubles never respect people. While trying to concentrate on studies and chasing after time to meet the target of the day, well,
a lot of things delay us. Troubles. For those that is willing to hold the burden alone trying not to interupt my attention, i appreciate all the love. But troubles doesn't recognise status and condition. they are not exceptional and like the summer in Malaysia, it's a whole year season.
if only people learn to forgive and forget, if only people learn to love self-lessly and not selfishly, if only peope learn to give and to hope, if only people learn to look at the bigger picture (general satisfaction) rather than the small small picture (own satisfaction).
I heard from the radio,
A teacher draw a dot on the white board and ask her students what can they see. unisonly they shouted "A DOT!!!". the teacher asked again, is that all you can see? A dot, they replied.
often our eyes, focus on the little dot and can't take our view out of that dot. is that all you can see? a dot, which equivalently a mistake. often in relationships, people remembers the mistake that u made, the things that the other person doesn't like, the expectation that wasn't fulfilled, the things that hurt you and others. all this, sum it all, can make a big thing. but looking at the other way, they forgot how people has given out to love them, the sacrifice that they made, the effort that they invested in the relationship to own that place in your heart and to continue to hold on to that position. well, no one is perfect. no one is good enough to say, i've never done anything wrong to you before.
My mom likes to nag at me. she can nag nag nag and naaaaag all the time. who likes to be nagged??!
not me!
but, in times when i need support, especially in the midst of exam, her nagging becomes my encouragement,
becomes a support for me to walk extra miles, and a way of loving me.
a lot of times, we stand strong in a view and complains about things that is incomplete, or rather, things that is not according to our way. My mom's nag is really terrible. But, if you think in another perspective, hey, sometimes my mom's nagging makes sense. she loves me, that's why she gives advice, in a nagging manner.
a lot of times, we ask, what do you have to offer me. but a lot of times, we forgot that our blessings are thousandfold, that we forgot, we can actually bless others and offer to other people.
well, i'm lucky enough not to have relationships that is close enough to have relationship problems. i'm not avoiding it, it was a choice, after all.
but among all, if only people learn to be meek and not ego. Ego can be a wall, that stop u from blessings that u can't imagine off.
k... i shall stop now. too much i dunno what is it. must be the jurisprudence class that makes me think of nonsense.
what am i talking? nonsense lorr.........
a lot of things delay us. Troubles. For those that is willing to hold the burden alone trying not to interupt my attention, i appreciate all the love. But troubles doesn't recognise status and condition. they are not exceptional and like the summer in Malaysia, it's a whole year season.
if only people learn to forgive and forget, if only people learn to love self-lessly and not selfishly, if only peope learn to give and to hope, if only people learn to look at the bigger picture (general satisfaction) rather than the small small picture (own satisfaction).
I heard from the radio,
A teacher draw a dot on the white board and ask her students what can they see. unisonly they shouted "A DOT!!!". the teacher asked again, is that all you can see? A dot, they replied.
often our eyes, focus on the little dot and can't take our view out of that dot. is that all you can see? a dot, which equivalently a mistake. often in relationships, people remembers the mistake that u made, the things that the other person doesn't like, the expectation that wasn't fulfilled, the things that hurt you and others. all this, sum it all, can make a big thing. but looking at the other way, they forgot how people has given out to love them, the sacrifice that they made, the effort that they invested in the relationship to own that place in your heart and to continue to hold on to that position. well, no one is perfect. no one is good enough to say, i've never done anything wrong to you before.
My mom likes to nag at me. she can nag nag nag and naaaaag all the time. who likes to be nagged??!
not me!
but, in times when i need support, especially in the midst of exam, her nagging becomes my encouragement,
becomes a support for me to walk extra miles, and a way of loving me.
a lot of times, we stand strong in a view and complains about things that is incomplete, or rather, things that is not according to our way. My mom's nag is really terrible. But, if you think in another perspective, hey, sometimes my mom's nagging makes sense. she loves me, that's why she gives advice, in a nagging manner.
a lot of times, we ask, what do you have to offer me. but a lot of times, we forgot that our blessings are thousandfold, that we forgot, we can actually bless others and offer to other people.
well, i'm lucky enough not to have relationships that is close enough to have relationship problems. i'm not avoiding it, it was a choice, after all.
but among all, if only people learn to be meek and not ego. Ego can be a wall, that stop u from blessings that u can't imagine off.
k... i shall stop now. too much i dunno what is it. must be the jurisprudence class that makes me think of nonsense.
what am i talking? nonsense lorr.........
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Believe
I remember last year when I just started doing revision for my referred paper, it was a struggle to me. Wanting to study and absorb everything that i read but at the same time, my heart keep blaming the subject which made me stay in KL for my year 3. I thought i'm going to fly off in september last year, but i didn't get to. all because of a silly mistake.
I remember during that period I was struggling, i texted my big sista, asking for strength and prayers. says her, know that what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good ya.
I went through it, and of course, i passed the paper.
And now, I'm preparing for my final year exam. Struggling of course, but always, God is good. No one understands what we're going through except for people that is going through it together with me. only in them i find strength and courage, and of course with prayers, i survive till today. until this point, if i don't help myself, no one can. if i choose not to continue on and just stop, no one can help me. It's me who decide, whether to continue or to stop.
Till now, whenever there is bad thoughts, i keep telling myself, knowing that God meant for good, devil meant for evil. I keep telling myself to focus, focus on what is more important now, which is the exam. there's no way of turning back, it's just cms close, to success. like what i told sy, our leg is up already, waiting to jump over to success.
no point turning back, no point going through the emo. right now, just have to pick and choose the emotions that is good, to be in the best condition to survive till the exam. Filtering i suppose, to hear what can build you up, and not things that can tear you down. saying is easy, i'm still trying too, till today, to focus. i couldn't agree more with what ty said, all the things that is not important, take it as an entertainment for break inbetween studies. haha.
i didn't meet my target today. been slack, been playing today. but well, no point turning back and whine about it. as long as i continue moving... though a bit. but as long as i didn't stop. yea? haha
I remember during that period I was struggling, i texted my big sista, asking for strength and prayers. says her, know that what the devil meant for evil, God meant for good ya.
I went through it, and of course, i passed the paper.
And now, I'm preparing for my final year exam. Struggling of course, but always, God is good. No one understands what we're going through except for people that is going through it together with me. only in them i find strength and courage, and of course with prayers, i survive till today. until this point, if i don't help myself, no one can. if i choose not to continue on and just stop, no one can help me. It's me who decide, whether to continue or to stop.
Till now, whenever there is bad thoughts, i keep telling myself, knowing that God meant for good, devil meant for evil. I keep telling myself to focus, focus on what is more important now, which is the exam. there's no way of turning back, it's just cms close, to success. like what i told sy, our leg is up already, waiting to jump over to success.
no point turning back, no point going through the emo. right now, just have to pick and choose the emotions that is good, to be in the best condition to survive till the exam. Filtering i suppose, to hear what can build you up, and not things that can tear you down. saying is easy, i'm still trying too, till today, to focus. i couldn't agree more with what ty said, all the things that is not important, take it as an entertainment for break inbetween studies. haha.
i didn't meet my target today. been slack, been playing today. but well, no point turning back and whine about it. as long as i continue moving... though a bit. but as long as i didn't stop. yea? haha
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!
So can you, if only you choose to believe!
So can you, if only you choose to believe!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Amazing Grace
It's interesting to know, bits and bits of us, we a product of things that happened to us, especially things that left a big scar, or left a big memories in us, or things that were so important to us that is not a constant reminder to us to not to walk back to the same road that led us to pain and so to say, suffering before.
If we think carefully, the way we talk, the way we react to things, the way we deal with things, somehow, some, reflect or the consequences, or the results as to those memories that were placed in the bad memory store room in our heart. Memories, good or bad, somehow, made who we are today.
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
Of course, the good ones, we keep. But the bad ones, those that left us "empty" months, those that made us cry every time someone close give us that look, those memories after months still fresh in our mind, the grudges especially, bad relationships and fights, left quite a significant mark, depends on the depth of those marks, depends on how serious was it, depending on how hurt we were.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
And because of all that happened, you told yourself, constantly, i will not this and i will not that. But after being soaked into the matter for so long, so much that we thought we're so hurt that we kept telling ourself, it's okay, let the time heal everything. We were overwhelmed by all the things that had happened, that whenever people share their experiences, we think that, oh well, you're not in my shoe, you'll never understand.
Somehow, part of me, who I am today, is what I've told myself, after the hurts and the bad memories, be it things that happened to me, or things that happened around me. And, it's holding me back, to things beyond my thinking, beyond what I have now.
My Chains are gone,
I've been set free,
My God My Saviour,
has ransomed me.
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace.
Today, in the church. Ps Andy did the prayer for closing after the worship. I was touched by what he asked. "Do you have anything that hold you back? The Chain that is holding you back?"
2 weeks after Easter, normally, weeks after Easter then only I really realise what Easter is all about. Every year of Easter, I receive different kind of blessings. And this year, i know, my chains are gone. set free by Christ dying on the cross for our sins.
Is there anything holding you back? let it resurrect together with Jesus Christ! Amen!
(just try to understand what i say. i type out whatever is in mind. in the midst of exam and believe that, i need to share this. God bless! Have a blessed weekend!)
(song by Chris Tomlin, Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone))
If we think carefully, the way we talk, the way we react to things, the way we deal with things, somehow, some, reflect or the consequences, or the results as to those memories that were placed in the bad memory store room in our heart. Memories, good or bad, somehow, made who we are today.
Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
Of course, the good ones, we keep. But the bad ones, those that left us "empty" months, those that made us cry every time someone close give us that look, those memories after months still fresh in our mind, the grudges especially, bad relationships and fights, left quite a significant mark, depends on the depth of those marks, depends on how serious was it, depending on how hurt we were.
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
And because of all that happened, you told yourself, constantly, i will not this and i will not that. But after being soaked into the matter for so long, so much that we thought we're so hurt that we kept telling ourself, it's okay, let the time heal everything. We were overwhelmed by all the things that had happened, that whenever people share their experiences, we think that, oh well, you're not in my shoe, you'll never understand.
Somehow, part of me, who I am today, is what I've told myself, after the hurts and the bad memories, be it things that happened to me, or things that happened around me. And, it's holding me back, to things beyond my thinking, beyond what I have now.
My Chains are gone,
I've been set free,
My God My Saviour,
has ransomed me.
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace.
Today, in the church. Ps Andy did the prayer for closing after the worship. I was touched by what he asked. "Do you have anything that hold you back? The Chain that is holding you back?"
2 weeks after Easter, normally, weeks after Easter then only I really realise what Easter is all about. Every year of Easter, I receive different kind of blessings. And this year, i know, my chains are gone. set free by Christ dying on the cross for our sins.
Is there anything holding you back? let it resurrect together with Jesus Christ! Amen!
(just try to understand what i say. i type out whatever is in mind. in the midst of exam and believe that, i need to share this. God bless! Have a blessed weekend!)
(song by Chris Tomlin, Amazing Grace (My Chains are Gone))
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
08.04.08
Just made some changes to the blog. got bored with the previous colour. And the head of the blog, drew it using Paint program in the windows. just for temporary, till i finish my exam.
I'm feeling much better now, after all the tears and prayers and supports, I'm much stronger. Hmm, other than squeezing fats out of us in preparation for exam, other than the sweat and toil, we also lost buckets of tears. At the end of the exam, everyone will come out like zombie, didn't sleep well, didn't rest well, didn't eat well. haha.
2 months more before freedom. Can't wait! But at the same time, hope that time past slowly, because graduation. haha. finally.
May my desire, be His will. Amen!
God bless!
Big eh... it's Tiger Prawn. Yummy.
Had this in future-sis-in-law's house.
The tiger prawn, of course from Sabah.... hahaha.....
thanks to my dad!
I'm feeling much better now, after all the tears and prayers and supports, I'm much stronger. Hmm, other than squeezing fats out of us in preparation for exam, other than the sweat and toil, we also lost buckets of tears. At the end of the exam, everyone will come out like zombie, didn't sleep well, didn't rest well, didn't eat well. haha.
2 months more before freedom. Can't wait! But at the same time, hope that time past slowly, because graduation. haha. finally.
May my desire, be His will. Amen!
God bless!
Big eh... it's Tiger Prawn. Yummy.
Had this in future-sis-in-law's house.
The tiger prawn, of course from Sabah.... hahaha.....
thanks to my dad!
Friday, April 04, 2008
04.04.08
I'm still in the midst of preparing for exam. While battling with books, I'm also fighting against bad thoughts in the head. Not many people is being supportive, sometimes, people just utter words without realising that they actually tear people down. So, other than trying to understand the notes that i'm reading, i'm trying hard too, to fight against the evil thoughts.
Knowing that God meant for good and devil meant for evil, I shall keep the faith in Him.
Today, I've bought about RM100 worth of supplements, just to maintain myself in the best condition. To those who are studying for exam, do take care of your health. Rest appropriately!
Till then, God Bless!
Had birthday celebration last Wednesday. more than 20 of us were there.
Happy Burfday Celeste! Forever 21... kahkahkah.....
Knowing that God meant for good and devil meant for evil, I shall keep the faith in Him.
Today, I've bought about RM100 worth of supplements, just to maintain myself in the best condition. To those who are studying for exam, do take care of your health. Rest appropriately!
Till then, God Bless!
Had birthday celebration last Wednesday. more than 20 of us were there.
Happy Burfday Celeste! Forever 21... kahkahkah.....
Monday, March 31, 2008
31.03.08
Stress is when the clock ticks 5pm and your finger is so tempted to press that button on the square box, while you're at your study table, trying to study.
Grrrr.........
3pm - Taiwan Drama Series
5pm - Singapore Drama Series
6pm - Taiwanese Drama Series
8.30pm - Korean Drama Series
I need someone to help me to chain my tv to the store room.
bleh.
Grrrr.........
3pm - Taiwan Drama Series
5pm - Singapore Drama Series
6pm - Taiwanese Drama Series
8.30pm - Korean Drama Series
I need someone to help me to chain my tv to the store room.
bleh.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
At The Cross
Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now
You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)
You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
Oh.. I know You love me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now
You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was shed for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now?(x2)
You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done
And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
Oh.. I know You love me
No man can find a word to describe the pain and suffering that Jesus Christ had endured at the cross, and thus excruciation was found from the latin to describe the worst state of pain. It means, At the Cross, describing the state of Pain Jesus endured at the cross, was, the worst of all.
No man also can find a word to describe the unconditional love from the Father in Heaven to us, the people and only agape love, means selfless love, can describe it.
For God so loved the world that
he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in him shall not perish
but have eternal life.
John 3:16
he gave his one and only Son,
that whoever believes in him shall not perish
but have eternal life.
John 3:16
May Easter Day, stay in our heart everyday, reminding us His love for you, and for me. Jesus Loves You! Happy Easter!
Sunday, March 16, 2008
16.03.08
It was just a week ago that the Internet connection was in the peak during the midnight and houses was still light up watching the tv with the mobile phone company earlier informed that there would be no report delivery on Saturday night. It was the election. And after a week, there is still hoo and haa all over the place, with people doesn't try help but instead creating more mess.
Last year, we celebrated Merdeka day up at Bukit Tinggi together with the college friends attending our church College Camp. On the midnight past merdeka day, we had countdown and mini fashion show of whose attire resembled Merdeka the most. Each of us was given a small Malaysia flag and had prayers and celebration that night. Well, I wasn't so keen that night. To me, it's just another merdeka.
For past one week, I've been watching videos of leaders and election candidates speech uploaded to the internet. Frankly, if it's not for the election, I won' be so patriotic, so into the politics, the law and order of the country. I must admit that this was the 2nd time I missed the voting for the election, I didn't even register myself. That tells you how disconnected I am to the country. Though i read news everyday, but what the politician does, what's happening to the government, i don't really know, cause all i read is, the kepoh stuff that happened or happening.
Now and then, I heard lots of criticism about everything that is happening, and I myself contributed much to the negative comments on the country, but well, it makes me realise, I'm still a Malaysian. The truth that I was born here, can't be changed. the domicile of origin is acquired at your birth, cannot be abandoned and can only be held in abeyance. Thus, that makes me Anak Malaysia.
I always think, what the country can do to me. Just like a lot of people, the grass is greener over the other side. The fact that we think that the grass is greener over the other side because we see only the greener side of that place, and the fact that we say it's greener there, cause we doesn't know that place as much as we know our own place, Malaysia. No matter how terrible you think it is, it is still, your origin.
As much criticism was given post election, to anyone that is involved, we forgot the main purpose of the election. A lot of people, in support of the particular candidate/politician/representative/party that they admire/like/love/die with/etc, became self-centred and not looking at the matter. the very purpose of the election, is to elect the leaders whom we think are able to lead the country, to development and prosper. And we forgot that, the main purpose of election, is also to discard the unrighteous ones and to place the meeks, righteous ones and the peacemakers. Most importantly, God-Fear ones. A lot of people forgot that, we have to look at the matter rather than the person, dealing with the problem that we have rather than shooting the person(s).
Ask not what the country can do to you, but ask what you can do to your country. I am still very proud, being a Malaysian.
Last year, we celebrated Merdeka day up at Bukit Tinggi together with the college friends attending our church College Camp. On the midnight past merdeka day, we had countdown and mini fashion show of whose attire resembled Merdeka the most. Each of us was given a small Malaysia flag and had prayers and celebration that night. Well, I wasn't so keen that night. To me, it's just another merdeka.
For past one week, I've been watching videos of leaders and election candidates speech uploaded to the internet. Frankly, if it's not for the election, I won' be so patriotic, so into the politics, the law and order of the country. I must admit that this was the 2nd time I missed the voting for the election, I didn't even register myself. That tells you how disconnected I am to the country. Though i read news everyday, but what the politician does, what's happening to the government, i don't really know, cause all i read is, the kepoh stuff that happened or happening.
Now and then, I heard lots of criticism about everything that is happening, and I myself contributed much to the negative comments on the country, but well, it makes me realise, I'm still a Malaysian. The truth that I was born here, can't be changed. the domicile of origin is acquired at your birth, cannot be abandoned and can only be held in abeyance. Thus, that makes me Anak Malaysia.
I always think, what the country can do to me. Just like a lot of people, the grass is greener over the other side. The fact that we think that the grass is greener over the other side because we see only the greener side of that place, and the fact that we say it's greener there, cause we doesn't know that place as much as we know our own place, Malaysia. No matter how terrible you think it is, it is still, your origin.
As much criticism was given post election, to anyone that is involved, we forgot the main purpose of the election. A lot of people, in support of the particular candidate/politician/representative/party that they admire/like/love/die with/etc, became self-centred and not looking at the matter. the very purpose of the election, is to elect the leaders whom we think are able to lead the country, to development and prosper. And we forgot that, the main purpose of election, is also to discard the unrighteous ones and to place the meeks, righteous ones and the peacemakers. Most importantly, God-Fear ones. A lot of people forgot that, we have to look at the matter rather than the person, dealing with the problem that we have rather than shooting the person(s).
Ask not what the country can do to you, but ask what you can do to your country. I am still very proud, being a Malaysian.
Saturday, March 15, 2008
15.03.08
the countdown is, exactly 8 weeks to exam.
as scary as it is, i still continue on and persevere. there's so much to be afraid of i just need to remind myself, not to leave a back door. grrrr.......
i just want to update my blog.
haha!
All the best!!
as scary as it is, i still continue on and persevere. there's so much to be afraid of i just need to remind myself, not to leave a back door. grrrr.......
i just want to update my blog.
haha!
All the best!!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Year of Rata-Touile
I am procrastinating. Just last night i was so stress with studies and fear that i cannot finish my syllabus on time, and here i am, upload photos and blog.
Nothing much.... just want to share.....
Was having breakfast together with BIG family, and heard the group of lion dance people past by to the shop next door. So, I quickly ran out to join the crowd. Hehe.... I just love the noise and th crowd.
2 days ago, marked the 15th day of the first month of Chinese Lunar Calender. I went over to Sze's house to have dinner. Last year there were 6 of us, and this year left 3 of us. Ty and Sy... i know you miss us, the photo is for you both. hehe.
K.... Have a great weekend!!
Nothing much.... just want to share.....
K.... Have a great weekend!!
Thursday, February 21, 2008
21.02.08
Am taking a break from studying, just start my revision on the subject that I don't like the most, and most students find it, bored or too hard to understand, jurisprudence.
It's not really hard though, just that the words that they use, are words that we don't normally use, or words that are found only in the dustbins. Since the jurists that wrote what is law is all about were from the 17th to 19th Century, their english, though much better than Shakespeare, but still, hard to understand.
After reading repeatedly, I finally understand. But the problem is, I need to scrutinize it. Whoa, criticising the work of jurist from 18th Century, that makes me a master in law. Questions need us to give in our comments and our opinions, what do we think about it. This is my problem, i don't know how to give comment. I can't even give comments on questions such as 'what do u think about death sentence on criminal?'. to talk about just morality, i can answer that. but jurisprudence is more than just law and morality, i guess.
The education system that we have plus the background that we were from, tells it all, that why a simple question like that, we were only able to answer err yes, or no. We were not born to environment that teach us to be different and interactive, but rather into a passive way of learning system and swallow everything that the teacher says. of course, education system is changing towards i don't know what direction, but a lot of times lecturers tried to create interactive class but it didn't work.
But well, since i don't have any comment or my own opinion, i shall just take the opinion of contrasting jurists and agree with it. muahahahaha...
back to work :p
It's not really hard though, just that the words that they use, are words that we don't normally use, or words that are found only in the dustbins. Since the jurists that wrote what is law is all about were from the 17th to 19th Century, their english, though much better than Shakespeare, but still, hard to understand.
After reading repeatedly, I finally understand. But the problem is, I need to scrutinize it. Whoa, criticising the work of jurist from 18th Century, that makes me a master in law. Questions need us to give in our comments and our opinions, what do we think about it. This is my problem, i don't know how to give comment. I can't even give comments on questions such as 'what do u think about death sentence on criminal?'. to talk about just morality, i can answer that. but jurisprudence is more than just law and morality, i guess.
The education system that we have plus the background that we were from, tells it all, that why a simple question like that, we were only able to answer err yes, or no. We were not born to environment that teach us to be different and interactive, but rather into a passive way of learning system and swallow everything that the teacher says. of course, education system is changing towards i don't know what direction, but a lot of times lecturers tried to create interactive class but it didn't work.
But well, since i don't have any comment or my own opinion, i shall just take the opinion of contrasting jurists and agree with it. muahahahaha...
back to work :p
Monday, February 18, 2008
18.02.08
It's been a while....
addy says, my blog is growing cobweb...
me, i'm being generous... offer the spider a place to stay.....
a break while studying...... yeng sent me this.....
It lifted me up, renewed my strength.
Cheers! Have a good weekend!
addy says, my blog is growing cobweb...
me, i'm being generous... offer the spider a place to stay.....
a break while studying...... yeng sent me this.....
It lifted me up, renewed my strength.
Cheers! Have a good weekend!
Monday, December 31, 2007
T h a N k Y o U
It's the last day of the year now, and everyone is rushing, to end the year well, to start off the new year with excellence. Young adults' partying, parents rushing to buy school equipment, churches organising overnight prayer and thanksgiving party and me, not excluded from all this.
It's been a year of roller coaster, as i've shared with some of the cell members during the sharing time. The high and low throughout the year, brought me where i am today. After all the laughter and crying, the wondering and pondering, i finally understood why God brought me where I am today.
I thank God for family. For the support that I've never imagine.
I thank God for the group of friends that has been there for me, in times of up and down, they where there and i know, though they're far away, they're always there for me.
I thank God for my results. If it's not for one referred paper that made me stay in KL for Year 3 instead of going to UK, i wouldn't get to be there for my mom during her operation few weeks back. Brother was right, through times of trial that we get to see, what we have missed. Oh, praise the Lord, i passed my referred paper. Now, OFFICIALLY, i'm in my final year!!!
I thank God for the wonderful camp that we went. Not so much of the seminars and team building sessions that i've gained, but just sitting at the feet of Jesus, enjoying His presence through the praise and worship session restored my strength and pull me up again.
I thank God, for everything that He has done. Indeed, we never run short of His blessings. the only thing that pull us back, the only thing that hold us back, is only ourselves. whether we can reach the impossible, whether we can succeed that dream which we think we will not made it, whether we can reach the higher level, is all depending on ourselves. When the whole world turn against you and tell you, you will not make it, when no one stand besides you to hold you and support you through, it's still YOU ultimately, we make the decision, whether or not you want it.
And now, it's time to think of, what i want to achieve next year. The sky is the limit, and the only limitation, is your own desire. You sets it, whether to fly high, or not to.
Happy New Year! May God brings u to another level in life, bless you abundantly, blesses you in every where u go!
It's been a year of roller coaster, as i've shared with some of the cell members during the sharing time. The high and low throughout the year, brought me where i am today. After all the laughter and crying, the wondering and pondering, i finally understood why God brought me where I am today.
I thank God for family. For the support that I've never imagine.
I thank God for the group of friends that has been there for me, in times of up and down, they where there and i know, though they're far away, they're always there for me.
I thank God for my results. If it's not for one referred paper that made me stay in KL for Year 3 instead of going to UK, i wouldn't get to be there for my mom during her operation few weeks back. Brother was right, through times of trial that we get to see, what we have missed. Oh, praise the Lord, i passed my referred paper. Now, OFFICIALLY, i'm in my final year!!!
I thank God for the wonderful camp that we went. Not so much of the seminars and team building sessions that i've gained, but just sitting at the feet of Jesus, enjoying His presence through the praise and worship session restored my strength and pull me up again.
I thank God, for everything that He has done. Indeed, we never run short of His blessings. the only thing that pull us back, the only thing that hold us back, is only ourselves. whether we can reach the impossible, whether we can succeed that dream which we think we will not made it, whether we can reach the higher level, is all depending on ourselves. When the whole world turn against you and tell you, you will not make it, when no one stand besides you to hold you and support you through, it's still YOU ultimately, we make the decision, whether or not you want it.
And now, it's time to think of, what i want to achieve next year. The sky is the limit, and the only limitation, is your own desire. You sets it, whether to fly high, or not to.
Happy New Year! May God brings u to another level in life, bless you abundantly, blesses you in every where u go!
Monday, December 24, 2007
Wednesday, December 05, 2007
05.12.07
I was digging into my hardisk, looking for my favourite show, Devil Wears Prada but nowhere to be seen. Not sure if i've deleted it, or i saved it somewhere. Just the other day i was sharing with a friend about life and work and i told her, I don't mind having a work like the girl in Prada as i like the stress of work and i enjoy it. Something which i wanted to do, before i go back home and settle down. But a lot of people doesn't agree with me, having love and work to choose, many would choose love. I don't know, as i've never been in the situation before, having to choose between love and work but one thing i can control now, is not having that love.
That friend of mine, is working as, not to say her dream work, but one of the work that she enjoys. the stress of working with people and getting things done, especially the challenges that she deals with everyday is different. Well, you know, human, behaviour changes everyday, hence given her different kind of challenges (read: trouble) almost everyday. And the sleepless nights that she couldn't even remember how long has she been staying awake, without sleeping and asked if she has been sleeping, she can't remember when did she sleep. But well, not talking about the pay, but she enjoyed her work very much. In work like this, of course you can foresee that either she doesn't have love life, or her boyfriend is very much, neglected.
I can see that I'm going into that direction, working and stress, very much an alcoholic. I just feel that I won't satisfied with what i have if i don't go out there and experience the big society before returning home. It will only take a few years, to be away from home and build my own career. But yet, i can't have the best of both world. Somehow, something needed to be sacrifice. Back to my friend, having to dump lots of time in work, she realised that, in the end of day, she doesn't have many friends around and the group of people that she used to hang out with, somehow, no longer have her in the circle. Feeling disconnected, she realised, she doesn't gain much end of the day. Well, that makes me think, is that the way i want to lead my life? But it's just for a couple of years.
Well, at least, for that friend, she still have me. You're just tired, i said. It just need someone, to say, you'll be alright, and you will have the courage and strength to walk a few more miles.
That friend of mine, is working as, not to say her dream work, but one of the work that she enjoys. the stress of working with people and getting things done, especially the challenges that she deals with everyday is different. Well, you know, human, behaviour changes everyday, hence given her different kind of challenges (read: trouble) almost everyday. And the sleepless nights that she couldn't even remember how long has she been staying awake, without sleeping and asked if she has been sleeping, she can't remember when did she sleep. But well, not talking about the pay, but she enjoyed her work very much. In work like this, of course you can foresee that either she doesn't have love life, or her boyfriend is very much, neglected.
I can see that I'm going into that direction, working and stress, very much an alcoholic. I just feel that I won't satisfied with what i have if i don't go out there and experience the big society before returning home. It will only take a few years, to be away from home and build my own career. But yet, i can't have the best of both world. Somehow, something needed to be sacrifice. Back to my friend, having to dump lots of time in work, she realised that, in the end of day, she doesn't have many friends around and the group of people that she used to hang out with, somehow, no longer have her in the circle. Feeling disconnected, she realised, she doesn't gain much end of the day. Well, that makes me think, is that the way i want to lead my life? But it's just for a couple of years.
Well, at least, for that friend, she still have me. You're just tired, i said. It just need someone, to say, you'll be alright, and you will have the courage and strength to walk a few more miles.
Although the road seems so long and you feel that you're alone,
keep walking and remember to look left and right,
for there's people, walking with you at the side of the track.
Just a lil bit more, and you'll reach your destination soon.
keep walking and remember to look left and right,
for there's people, walking with you at the side of the track.
Just a lil bit more, and you'll reach your destination soon.
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